The office threw a birthday party to me, everyone in the architecture department made an effort to it. I don't know if sincere iyon pero I'm happy.
My brothers also want me to visit the mansion para makapag celebrate. Surprisingly, Ate Belle is home. Nag karoon lang kami ng mini party sa pool side at candle blowing. It still feel special dahil kumpleto kaming magkakapatid.
Kuya Lourde gave me a brand new drafting table. Siya daw mismo ang pumili noon. Kuya Ace gave me a book set about architecture, he's really thoughtful.
Meanwhile, si Kuya Freude, inusisa ako sa nangyari. I know that malamang ay ikinwento na ni Kuya Ace ang nangyaring suntukan sa pagitan nila ni Vaughn.
"If he humiliates you again in public, ako na ang dadayo at susuntok sakanya." Nagkatinginan naman sila ni Kuya Ace, mga may binabalak.
"Stop it, Kuya. He's not bothering me." Awat ko, dahil alam kong hindi sila titigil.
"Why are you still with that guy? Lolokohin ka lang niyan." Pangaral ni Ate Belle, she's sipping her champagne.
"He'll change."
"He won't change." Tawa ni Ate Belle at itinaas ang paa sa lounger. "Wait until you see him with someone else, doon ka lang matatauhan. That's how it works, if you see it with your own eyes."
"Hindi lang namin ikaw pinapakialaman, you're not a minor anymore. We just want you safe." Inom ni Kuya Lourde sa beer niya. "If he hurt you, I won't hesitate na ipakulong iyan."
"So, si Alastaire nakasuntok na?" Tawa ni Ate Belle. "I can't wait to kick him."
Magdamag ko tuloy inisip iyon dahil totoong nag aalala ako. I'm having an anxiety just by thinking of him, lahat ng insecurities ko lumilitaw nanaman.
I cannot forget him flirting with the FEU girl a year ago. They were chatting nonstop until noong mahuli ko. And yes, he was asking for nudes.
He told me his reason, it was because I refuse on having sex with him for months. It fucking hurt me at wasted ako palagi, gabi gabi. I cannot forgive him that time and unti now...I cannot forget.
Then the PLM girl came into the picture and it was the same. Ang worry ko lang noon ay sobrang lapit lang ng PLM sa Letran, he could have met her there. They could...have sex or what. But he assured me na hanggang chats lang.
I shared my condo to him dahil hindi na siya nakabayad ng dorm niya. I offered to patch his balances in Letran dahil walang wala siya, I'm doing everything for him para hindi siya mawala.
And he's not here. I'm going to sleep alone kung kailan sinanay na niya ako ng ilang taon.
I wake up the next morning with Mama preparing my breakfast.
"Gising na at may shoot ka pa!"
"Puya na puyat ako, Mama. Paano pa nila ako me-make up-an nito?" Reklamo ko.
Inilagay niya ang breakfast ko sa harapan ko at nilagyan ng plato ang pwesto ni Vaughn sa hapag.
"In case na umuwi." Biro niya.
Pero hindi siya umuwi. Iniisip ko nalang na baka may overnight sa ibang bahay. Baka kasama sila Chester. Baka may ginawa related sa requirements.
I just don't know. It's February already. And I already have sixty hours dito sa internship ko. Hopefully ay matapos ko na agad, I need to chill.
"Tangiiiinaaaa." Bulong ko dahil walang pumapasok sa utak ko habang tinititigan ang computer.
"Wanna grab some coffee?" Aya ni Lawrence, pati siya ay sabaw na.
BINABASA MO ANG
SAUDADE: A Warrior In Every Inch
AcakSeñorita. No, that's not a title, pangalan ko iyon. It was just an ordinary day, I woke up and went to my graduation and delivered my valedictory speech. But coming down the stage was the biggest plot twist in my life. I am not just an ordinary girl...
