❝You're such a disgrace in this family!❞
❝Bakit hindi ka tumulad sa kuya mo?!❞
❝Wala kang kwentang anak!❞
❝Wala ka ng ginawang tama!❞
❝Ang bobo mo na at ang panget mo pa! Hindi ka nababagay sa'min.❞
These are some of many hurtful words that they threw upon me. Words that crumbled my confidence and determination.
Their words are like daggers that keeps on stabbing me hanggang sa wala ng matira sa'kin. They never feel how painful and hurtful their words can be.
Sabi nila mas mabuti daw kung mailalabas natin ang bigat na nasa puso natin. Na mailabas natin kung ano 'yung hinanakit natin. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero hindi ko alam kung saan magsisimula at kung kanino mago-open.
Gusto ko ng kausap, gusto ko ng maiiyakan, gusto ko ng karamay. I'm suffering so much pain and mental breakdown.
❝If you need someone to talk, I'm always here for you.❞
Nakakasawa na ding marinig 'yang mga salitang 'yan. Paulit-ulit nalang. Sasabihin nandyan sila lagi para sa'kin peroako en that time comes that I need someone to talk, where are they? They are always nowhere to be found every time I needed them the most.
I open my Facebook account because I want to see if one of my friends are still online. Btw today is April 1 and it's 3 am in the morning.
I scrolled down the list of my active friends and saw my best friend Yushiko is online.
Lilian Asuncion
Koko : (
I chatted him. I badly need someone to talk.
Yushiko Protacio
Oh
Hala ang sungit. Nireregla ata beh.
Lilian Asuncion
Busy ka?
Yushiko Protacio
What do you want?
Lilian Asuncion
I need someone to talk and then I remember what you said days ago that you're here for me when I need one.
Yushiko Protacio
I have no time for that fucking bullsht.
Lilian Asuncion
But you said that when I need someone you are always there?
Tears fell down my eye like an overflowing stream.
Yushiko Protacio
You're wasting my time.
Lilian Asuncion
Wasting your time? Am I not worthy for your time?
Yushiko Protacio
Yes, you're not. Look, I'm busy.
Lilian Asuncion
How can you say that? Nasa'n na 'yung sinasabi mong handa kang magpuyat? Makinig? Na handa kang samahan ako? Ha?! Lahat ba 'yon hanggang salita lang?
Yushiko Protacio
What do you want me to do then?
Lilian Protacio
Nothing. Sorry sa istorbo.
Yushiko Protacio
What are you going to do?
Lilian Asuncion
End my life? I regret that I let them ruined my life. I can't fight anymore.
Yushiko Protacio
Is this some kind of prank? Oh, I forgot that tomorrow is April Fools day so I think it is.
Lilian Asuncion
No, its's not. Punong puno na ako. Sobrang bigat na ng dinadala ko that make me want to end my fucking life.
Yushiko Protacio
Balakajan. I don't believe you. You're not Lilian who will choose to end her life because of fucking problems. The Lilian I know is the jolly and lovely Lilian. You're not her.
Lilian Asuncion
Oh it's me. It's just that I'm always wearing my mask. I wear mask to hide my sadness and the pain is excruciating.
Yushiko Protacio
Oh, dear I know you're doing some kind of trick to let me believe you and then tomorrow you will say it's a prank.
Lilian Asuncion
I hope so that it's just some kind of trick or prank. Goodbye, Koko.
Why do people around me keep on ignoring me?
Why do I need to seek their attention? Am I not worthy for their time and attention?
Why do I need to suffer like this? I hate myself for being attention seeker. I hate it.
Because of them I lost my confidence.
Because of them I lost my pride.
Because of them I lost everything yet they didn't care about it.
Because of them I lost m-myself...
Kinuha ko ang letter na ginawa ko kanina at nilagay ito sa bandang salamin ng kwarto ko. Yes, I wrote a letter saying...
❝To my family and friends,
Sorry for ending my life. Oh, I know lahat kayo magiging masaya dahil wala ng pasakit, wala ng pabigat, wala na kayong aalalahanin pa. Thank you for everything that you've done for me. My mind is full of suicidal thoughts. I've experienced enough that I choose to end my life instead. Don't feel sorry for me, okay? I love you all.❞
I pulled the rope around my neck and kicked the chair I was laying on.
BINABASA MO ANG
One Shot Stories
General FictionCompilation of One-shot stories that I've written and others are my collaboration stories with my co's. Enjoy Reading!!
