One Shot Stories

43. I WAS 9. I WAS 11. I WAS 13.

I was 9 when my playmate's brother asked me if I can accompany him to my room. He said he wants to see something that's why I agreed.

❝Mica, maglalaro tayo. Dapat susundin mo lahat ng sasahihin ko, okay ba 'yon sa'yo? And if you are a good girl then I'll you a reward,❞ he softly asked and I nodded.

❝Now, I want you to kiss me,❞ he commanded and gave me his malicious evil smirk.

❝But it's inappropriate. We are still kids and kids don't kiss that's what my mama said,❞ I looked away.

❝We already talked about that earlier 'di ba? Na whatever I asked you to do, you'll do it 'cause you want to see your reward, right?❞ nakayuko akong tumango. Pagagalitan ako ni Mama pag nalaman niya 'to.

❝Good girl. Now I want you to kiss me,❞ he ordered.

Dahan-dahan akong lumapit saka mariing pinikit ang mga mata bago ko idinikit ang aking labi sa'kanya.

Nagulat naman ako nang hawakan niya ang batok ko saka sinipsip ang ibaba kong labi.

❝Kuya! Stop!❞ pumiglas ako but he's too strong.

I was 9 when someone force me to kiss him.

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I was 11 when I woke up by a hands softly caressing my legs. I looked who's the owner of the hand. My eyes popped out, jaw dropped and my heart beat became so fast.

❝What are you doing? Why are you here in my room? Why your hands is on my legs?❞ sunod-sunod kong tanong.

❝Your legs are so irresistible. I licked it earlier and damn girl even your skin smell like a strawberry,❞

I gritted my teeth, ❝What are you doing here? You should be in your room cuddling with Mama!❞

His expression hardened. A vein popped out in his neck and his fist are clenched. ❝Shut the fck up or else...❞

I raised a brow, ❝Or else what?❞ paghahamon ko dito.

❝I'm gonna kill you and your family,❞ he laughed like an evil.

❝Why are you doing this?❞ I asked and glanced up the ceiling. I don't want to look at him. My Father who is in front of me isn't the real. I know that my Father can't do this to me.

Pasimple kong kinurot ang kamay ko at nasaktan ako. Hindi 'to panaginip.

❝Iniisip mong panaginip lang 'to?❞ he mocked.

❝Yes. 'Cause I know my Father loves us so much. He value us so much that he can't afford to see us crying and suffering...❞ my voice trailed.

❝Well, mali 'yung pagkakakilala mo sa'kin,❞ his eyes burned with so much desire.

Umibabaw siya sa'kin saka hinawakan ang dalawang braso ko at ipinagdikit sa taas ng ulo ko.

❝Ah!❞ I winced in pain nang sinira niya ang damit ko at hinalik-halikan ang leeg ko.

❝Papa, please...❞ I begged while I watched him unbuttoned his jeans.

❝This will surely hurt you but I don't give a damn,❞ he said and pushed his 'thing' inside me.

Napakapit ako sa bedsheets ng kama ko. Sobrang sakit. Feel ko may mawawarak sa'kin. Ta's pwinersa pa. Sht.

❝Ang sarap mo.❞ He moaned and thrust harder and faster.

All I can do is to watch him bringing his self to heaven while I'm in hell.

I blinked back the tears threatening to cascade down my cheeks.

Nakatayo na siya ngayon sa harap ko at nakangiting wagi. Walang puso. Nakakangiti pa siya ng gan'yan gayong kita naman niyang nahihirapan at nasasaktan ako physically and mentally?

❝Sa uulitin,❞ he smiled and walked away.

As the door closed. My tears fall down into my cheeks.

Pa'no niya nagagawa 'to sa sarili niyang anak? Pa'no niya nagagawa ang isang kademonyohang bagay kung may asawa naman siya?

I was 11 when I lost my virginity to my father.

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I was 13 when my father sneeked in the bathroom where I take a bath.

❝Pa!❞ sigaw ko saka tinakpan ng tuwalya ang hubad kong katawan.

❝Bakit tinatakpan mo e' nakita't natikman ko naman na 'yan,❞ he smirked at his remark and took of his shirt.

Fuck this will not going to happen again.

❝Nasiyahan ako doon sa kama mo. Subukan naman natin ngayon dito sa banyo,❞ aniya saka dali-daling hinila paalis sa katawan ko ang tuwalya.

❝Ugh!❞ ungol niya habang mabilis na umuulos sa likod ko. Hindi ako makasigaw o makaiyak 'man lang dahil nakabalot sa tuwalya ang ulo ko at may panyong nakatali sa bibig ko.

❝Malapit na ako!❞ he declared as if I care and thrust faster. Again and again.

Naramdaman ko ang main it na semilyang tumutulo sa hita ko. Tinaggal niya ang tuwalyang nakabalot sa ulo ko ngunit hindi ang panyo ko sa bibig. ❝'Wag na 'wag kang magsusumbong sa mama mo. Naiintindihan mo?❞ mariing bulong niya sa tenga ko habang nakasabunot ang mga kamay sa buhok ko.

Nagbabagsakan ang mga luha ko habang ako'y tumatango ng paulit-ulit kay Papa.

❝Sa oras na malaman-laman kong nagsumbong ka. Hindi lanh ikaw malilintikan sa'kin kundi ang buong pamilya,❞ banta niya at nagbanlaw saglit bago lumabas ng bathroom.

Nanghihina ang tuhod kong lumuhod habang umiiyak sa ilalim ng shower. Bawat pagpatak ng luha ko ay sinasabayan ng paglabas ng tubig sa shower.

❝Buhay pa ako pero unti-unti naman akong pinapatay.❞

I was 13 when my Father enter the bathroom and took advantage of my sudden weakness.

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I was raped multiple times, harrased countless times. Feels so scattered, battered and bruised yet those didn't hurt me as much as the day I already accepted my fate.

I came back from my reverie when my bestfriend Ella snapped her fingers in front of me.

❝Why are you crying? Sabi ko pakawalan mo lahat ng iniisip mo at irelax mo 'yung mind, heart and soul mo. Laya na tayo sa nakaraan, girl.❞

I smiled weakly. ❝Alam mo naman ano mga dinanas ko 'di ba?❞

❝Yes! Your life is so cruel,❞ she commented.

❝How I wish I could change my life,❞ I whispered but I know she heard it too.

❝Bakit kasi hindi mo pa sabihin sa Papa mo? Pulis 'yon ah. Malaki matutulong niya sa'yo.❞

I shooked my hand, ❝No.❞ I smiled bitterly.

Little did they knew that it was my Father who's raping me and ordered my playmate's brother to forcedly kiss him.