Spring Apart

Prologue

I was literally palpitating checking the result of LET Teachers board exam list of passer, I'm so nervous to the point that i feel my heart stops pumping

"Yva halika nga rito ikaw na magcheck please?" With my eyes closed giving her my laptop "Promise Lord pag nakapasa ako dito pwede mo na ako kunin"

Yva throw me the pillow beside her.     "Vina stop overreacting please? What if you passed this so you're allowing God to take you to heaven?"

"Yva it's not like that, i know i always overact pero kasi ganyan yung mga salitang binibitawan ng mga kinakabahan no" I rolled my eyes

"Okay, okay fine" Yva said

Yva is my closest friend since highschool, I do have a lot of friends but they are now living their succesful life.

I almost do all the stunts here in the couch. I have hopes that i already passed this one. I reviewed all the lessons even my prep and kinder lesson just to make sure.

"Yva ang tagal naman" I open my eyes and see how sad yva is "Anong result Yva? Nan-dyan ba na-me ko? I feel my tear ready to burst in a second

"Vina wag ka mabibigla" in a very serious voice "Congratulations my bestfriend you've made it" then she hugged me tight.

I lost words i don't know what is the right word to express my emotions right now. I broke my knees down I cried for so many reasons. Did i really reached my dreams? Eh yung kasama ko na buuin tong pangarap na to ay wala ngayon dito para samahan ako sa tagumpay ko.

Then i remember someone, isa lang naman yung naging lakas ko para maabot lahat ng to, siya lang yung nag iisang tao na naniniwala sakin bukod sa mga kaibigan ko akala ko nung una isa lang siyang malaking distraksyon sakin pero nagkamali ako. He see nothing but always perfect about me.

Pero bakit kung sino pa yung kalakasan ko siya rin pala yung magiging kahinaan ko?"

"Please Vina let's talk"

"Perdee please let me go pagod na kong nakikita na nahihirapan ka dahil sakin" parang sinaksak paulit ulit ang puso ko habang binabanggit ko ang pangalan niya

"Vina hinding hindi ako nahirapan o napagod man lang pag dating sayo alam mo naman na ikaw ang kalakasan ko diba" Perdee says without looking at me

"Magpahinga muna tayo Perdee hindi ko gusto yung ganito na sakin lang umiikot mundo mo, Perdee please distance yourself from me" hindi matigil ang aking paghikbi

"Pwede kong gawin lahat Vina just please wag yung ganito, Anong gusto mo? Pangako babawi ako tutuparin ko yung pangako ko sayo. Diba alam mo naman kung gaano kita kamahal? Vina please wag ganito ayusin natin to, Hindi ko kayang makita na masaya ka kahit wala ako" pagluhod niya sa harapan ko.

Tanging pag-iling lang ang naisagot ko sakanya.

"Okay, If that's what you want my Vina palagi naman akong talo pagdating sayo" I saw his tear dropping into his cheeks and he held my hand "Please reach your dreams without me my love" then he reach for my forehead and kissed it.

"I can reach my dreams without you Perdee isa ka lang distraction sakin!!" yan nalang ang tanging paraan ko para masaktan siya at tuluyan na iwan nalang ako

Perdee para sayo din to, hindi pwedeng ako lang ang matutupad ang pangarap dapat ikaw rin.

"I'm sorry Vina, This is the last time i promise"