Mr. Bad Boy's Bride

EPILOGUE

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EPILOGUE:

AUSTIN WAYNE BELLISARIO (LA)

I’m a liar. Pathetic. Desperate. Damned… Shit, the list goes on.

“Austin, are you sure you want to come with me?” Hearing Nina’s voice still makes me uneasy. After Meeraya and I separated ways, I suddenly had that feeling of wanting a life with no lies, no hard feelings, no regrets. I want to start anew. Para kapag nakita ko si Meeraya, maipagmamalaki ko na ‘yung ang sarili ko. Hindi iyong ako na ginaya ko lang mula sa libro. O ako na puro kasinungalingan naman. Kaya kahit napakadaming dahilan kung bakit hindi ko dapat patawarin si Nina, I still did. Isa pa, marami din naman akong nagawang mali sa kanya.

Tinanguhan ko na lang siya at pumasok na sa kotse. Sasamahan ko siyang mamili ng mga damit ngayon. Sa isang araw na ‘yung flight niya going to somewhere in the US.

I feel knots on my stomach and already know that she’s here even before I see her. When I glance on my right, I see her and Em entering a coffee shop. Apparently, Nina saw them too.

“I’m suddenly thirsty, Austin. Let’s go drink some coffee.” Tinaas niya ang kilay niya na parang hinahamon akong pumasok sa coffee shop. Nang hindi ako sumagot, nagpatuloy siya. “Don’t tell me takot kang harapin si Meg ngayon. Nakita mo ba kung paano sila magtawanan ni Mico? Papayag ka bang ganun-ganun na lang?”

I shake my head. I’m not afraid of Em stealing my girl. I trust Meeraya’s feelings for me. I’m more afraid of Meeraya rejecting me even if she loves me. Shit. Does she still loves me? I haven’t thought of that. But I’m not gonna tell that to anyone. Especially to this girl beside me.

Walang bakanteng pwesto pagkapasok namin kaya hihilahin ko na dapat si Nina paalis nang kinalabit ako ni Nina at itinuro si Meeraya.

Napapikit ako sa frustration. Shit, shit, fcking shit!!

 

Pagharap ko sa direksyon nila Meeraya at Em, pinilit kong huwag magpakita ng kahit anong emosyon. Inalok kami ni Meeraya ng pwesto dahil may dalawang bakanteng upuan doon. I want to say “Thanks, but no thanks” and bolt straight to the motherfxcking door. I can see her uneasiness and I feel my thoat tighten and suddenly, it’s getting damn hard to breathe.

Is she that uncomfortable with me? I can’t even ask myself again if she still loves me ‘cause I know I couldn’t- wouldn’t- answer that damn question. Aside from losing Meeraya, getting rejected by her, and her loving someone else, another thing to be listed in my list of fears is to know the answer to that question.

I try to mask my growing fear and ask her instead, “Are you sure?”

“Yep. Besides, aalis na rin naman kami ni Mico.” Ah, kaya pala okay lang sa kanya na mag-alok ng pwesto. Kasi aalis siya. Ayaw niya akong makasama. Fxcccck.