Restricted// Anakin Skywalker x Reader (Book 1)

Chapter 8

"You start your own path today, y/n. I am proud of you. I have taught you everything I know. Now, I wish you all the luck I can give you." Master Shaak Ti said as we stood in front of the Jedi Temple. I hugged her and replied, "Thank you for everything Master." She wrapped her arms around me.

She let go, but still held my arms and questioned, "You're tense. What's wrong y/n." I painted my face as if nothing was wrong. "Nothing Master. I'm just excited." She sighed, "I know you're lying y/n. What's wrong?" Hanging my head low, I confessed, "I was thinking about going to see Minx."

"Oh.." Master Shaak Ti voiced. "What made you think of that?"

"I've been remembering about what happened. I feel like I should." I told her. "I understand. I can't tell you what to do, but I have a feeling she would like to see you."

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Walking back to my room, I held onto my padawan braid that Master Shaak Ti cut off for me during the ceremony. As I turned the corner, I saw Anakin outside my room waiting for me.

Immediately, I spun around hoping to avoid him, but not fast enough. "Y/n!" He yelled running after me. "How'd it go?" He asked once he caught up to me. Putting my braid in my pocket, I kept my head up and eyes ahead of me. "Fine."

He looked at me confused. Anakin examined the people around us, then grabbed my hand and led me to a door and opened it, taking me in it with him. Closing the door behind him, he stood in front of it. "What's your problem?"

My eyes opened wide and I repeated in a flabbergasted tone. "What's my problem?" He nodded. I let out a laugh and tried to get past him. He didn't move.

"Let me out." I scolded. "Not until you tell me what's wrong."

"What's wrong?" I laughed, "You keep bringing up Minx. I told you I don't want to talk about it."

"Y/n, it was five years ago. What was so bad that-"

"We left her!" I shouted as the annoyance built in me. "Is that what you wanted to hear? That we left her to watch over our camp and she ended up almost dying? She's paralyzed because of me!"

Tears welded in my eyes and he stayed quiet. Anakin reached out and attempted to hold me, but I swatted his arm and backed away.

"This was a mistake. We are a mistake." I said as I pushed myself pass him, leaving him in the small room.

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Laying in my bed, I stared at the ceiling thinking about earlier. It replayed in my mind since I've never told anyone what happened. There was a knock at the door, but I ignored it. I could feel him there.

"Y/n. Are you okay?" Anakin asked from the other side. I turned to my side and covered my other ear with a pillow, hoping to block out the noise. "Y/n. Open the door, I'm sorry." Anakin pleaded. "Y/n please." His tone sounded more desperate. "Please let me in." I

t's been almost two months since he's came back into my life and he was already destroying me.

"Y/n! Open this door!" He quietly yelled against the metal in his face. I got up and walked to the door, unlocking it but not opening it. Making my way to the window, the door opened and Anakin walked in, closing it behind him.

"Y/n, I'm sorry." Gazing out the window, I could feel his stress and frustration. He stepped closer to me, a few feet away. "I didn't mean to upset you. Please, don't shut me out."

I turned my body to him and spoke, "I'm just trying to focus on my career." He stepped closer, now at least two feet away. "I am too, but I can't when you're here." I raised my eyebrows and crossed my arms over my chest. "I'm the problem here?"

"No! No. That's not what I meant. I mean that I can't focus because of you."

"The door is right there. You don't have to talk or see me. I'm not forcing you to do anything." Anakin put his hand over his face. "I don't mean it like that." He lowered his hand back down to his side.

"Ever since we've departed I haven't stopped thinking about you. Always wondering how your day was. How you were doing in your training. Or If I would ever see you again." He stepped closer, a foot away.

"I couldn't stop thinking about you, no matter how hard I tried. You're intoxicating, y/n. When we kissed I-" I interrupted him, "You were in pain Anakin. You don't feel anything for me, you just think you do."

"I've never felt anything as clear as I do for you, y/n." He filled the gap between us. "But Padme. You said she's 'grown more beautiful.' You like her but think you like me since we're spending more time together. You're grieving."

He wasn't wrong though, Padme is beautiful. Everything about her was flawless.

"Padme is a friend, nothing more. I just gave her a compliment, plus, she was the first actual girl I ever saw on Tatooine. Not to mention that I was 9."

"You didn't give me one though." I mumbled, thinking he wouldn't hear. "Trust me, I wanted to. My Master knows I don't feel anything for Padme, but knows I feel something for you."