Restricted// Anakin Skywalker x Reader (Book 1)

Chapter 9

My breath hitched in my throat. Did he really mean that?

"Anakin, even if you were telling the truth we'd have to live a lie. Would you want that? To live in secret for the rest of our lives?" I asked him. "I am telling the truth, and if it meant being able to spend the rest of my life with you, yes."

"Get out." I spoke quietly under my breath. "What?" He asked calmly. I raised my tone, getting more impatient, "Get out. Anakin get out now." I saw that he was taken back a little but stood up for himself. "No. I can feel it in you. You feel the same thing I do. I'm not leaving you!"

My anger built up, making me want to hurt him. He knows nothing about me. How dare he. I stormed off towards the door, hoping to leave, but Anakin grabbed my arm, pulling me back to him.

Without hesitation or even thinking, I spun around and punched him in the face. Anakin let go of my arm and stumbled back while holding his nose. It took me a second to realize what I did before hurrying to him. "Anakin I'm so sorry. Here, let me look." He looked at me with cautious eyes, then moved his hand allowing me to inspect his nose. "It doesn't look broken. Come with me."

We walked into the bathroom and I motioned for him to sit on the toilet seat. He did so as I grabbed a towel and the first aid kit in the drawer. Opening the kit, I grabbed the gauze and set it down on the sink.

When I was wetting the towel, we were both silent. I felt uncomfortable and I felt he did too. I knelt down in front of him and he let go of his nose. As I cleaned the blood Anakin watched me very carefully.

"You're so beautiful." Who knew those three words would make my heart skip a beat. Coming out of my trance, I stuffed the gauze in his nostrils to absorb any more of the bleeding. "I'm sorry, Anakin." I apologized as I was about to leave the room, but stopped when he pleaded, "Stay." I hesitantly went back to where I was prior, sitting down on the edge of the tub next to him.

"I'm sorry y/n. This was my doing not yours." I didn't respond. I didn't know what to say. We sat in silence for awhile before he expressed, "I think the bleeding stopped." He threw the gauze into the trash can next to the toilet.

I followed Anakin out the bathroom and to the door. "I'm sorry again." 

"I'm sorry too." He said before opening the door and leaving, the door sliding shut behind him.

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Hours later, I was pacing in my room recalling the events that happened earlier with Anakin. I knew what I felt for him. I couldn't allow him to risk his career for me and I was scared to admit what I felt before. Now I felt different. I wanted to scream it from the Temple. It was as if something inside my sprung, giving me a boost of energy.

Without thinking, I stormed out my room and sprinted through the hall. I didn't allow myself to stop running or slow down. Not until I reached his room. People gave me weird looks, but I didn't care. I needed to see him.

When I made it, I knocked and waited impatiently while watching my surroundings. Anakin opened the door, but before he could say anything, I barged past him and entered his room.

"Anakin I'm sorry about earlier, believe me. I was scared and upset because ever since you came back into my life, it has changed drastically. I don't want to lose everything we have trained for if we get caught, especially with the chance of the council finding out. I mean, if they did then they would expel us from the order and then we'd most likely be separated." I rambled on as he watched me pace back and forth in his room while closing the door.

"And if we were expelled then-" Anakin grabbed my arms which made me stop. "We'll worry about it if that happens. Focus on right now." I sighed, "I don't know if you're even telling the truth thou-" Anakin pressed his lips against mine, as if it was the end of the world.

I didn't move. I was paralyzed from his touch. He pulled away and asked, "Does that answer your question, y/n?" Taking a moment to understand what just happened, I pulled Anakin back in and wrapped my arms around his neck.

I pulled away quickly, fearing of wanting more than a kiss. I patted his chest, "Goodnight, Anakin. Skywalker" I smiled and walked toward the door. "Goodnight, y/n y/l/n." He said as I left.