Kigo

In the Middle by StarvingLunatic 7

7: Sugary Filling, part 2

Kim watched Bonnie and Shego as they ate lunch together. She was on a rooftop across the street from them and she was using mission equipment to spy on them. That sort of was the "emergency" she told Shego about in her note as to why they should go to lunch without her. She wanted to see what they looked like when she was not around.

They looked pretty happy, if their smiles and laughter were any indication of what mood they were in. They get along just fine without me. They would get along might fine without her. They did not need her.

Maybe... maybe I should leave, she told herself. She was not a necessity for things to work. They would take care of each other. She had no doubt about that. It would be easier to do, too. They could just be a couple. They could be a normal couple.

They would only have to focus on each other and give each other the best attention. They could be completely devoted to each other and only have to worry about their problems together. Surely their love for each other would only grow if that were the case and they both adore being the center of attention.

They would not have to fret about her on missions. They would not worry themselves sick over her. They would not have to worry much about people judging them either about the relationship. Sure, Shego did not care much about people knowing, but Bonnie was not as open as she pretended to be. She had to worry about her job, after all. There was always a chance that she could negotiate things being a lesbian, but not being a polygamist.

So, maybe I should leave, Kim considered again. Maybe it would be the best thing for me, for them. I wouldn't be there to drag them down, embarrass them, or worry them. Leaving might be for the best. The more she thought about, the more sense it made.

Maybe somehow, she would be able to regain at least some of her parents' respect and trust if she left. With the way Bonnie and Shego got along now, they might even appreciate it if she left. They could then expand on their relationship, which was obviously just waiting for a chance to fully blossom in her opinion. I'm probably holding them back, holding back their real relationship. She continued to watch them and how well they got on together.

"They'd be happy without me. They'd take care of each other. They don't need me anymore. They have each other," she muttered over and over again as she watched them. They would take care of each other. They would never need her again.

As those thoughts flooded her, tears gathered in her eyes. She loved them so much, but her parents were her parents. She put her face in her hands and began crying. Why did everything have to be so difficult? Why would she just not be in love and that be the end of things?

The next few days went by the same as that one. Kim avoided having lunch with Shego and Bonnie, offering up weak excuses in the forms of notes instead of talking with them face to face. She just could not bring herself to lie to Shego's face about why she was not coming out for lunch. At home, she was much better, though; or at least, she pretended to be much better.

Kim acted the same for the most part at home, or so she thought. Shego and Bonnie watched the redhead when they had the chance, which was only at home because she avoided them once they left the house. They eyed her when she thought she was alone, seeing the misery that coated her entire being almost as if it was a tangible entity. They were not totally sure what they could or should do about her, though.

They knew if they tried to talk to her, she would act like nothing was wrong. She would throw them her brightest smile and maybe even fool them into believing she was all right, if only for a little while. If they tried cuddling her, she would just act like that was normal and let them.