Taeyong is laying on his bed and playing with his phone. The room is already dark but his bedside lamp is on."Silver?" His deep voice calls out. He sits up and puts away his phone, surprised to see me.
"Hey, can I come in?" I'm still holding the doorknob in case he decided to shut me out.
"Yeah.. Uh, come here." He pats the empty side of the bed. I close the door and sits next to him.
"What's wrong?" He asks. He's less cold than he was, but there's a nervousness in his voice.
"Well, I've been thinking. I shouldn't have done that to you last night. I'm sorry." He looks a bit disappointed. Like he was expecting something else.
"Oh, that. It's okay. I get it.." He nods.
"I talked to Jake this afternoon. He said you were upset. I'm worried." I continue. He chuckles.
"I am upset. But I'll be fine." His tone is a bit sarcastic. He yawns and throw himself to the bed and stares at the ceiling. I do the same.
"Jake also said I shouldn't run away because you care about me, all of you care." I paused. He turns to me. "The truth is I'm really scared, Tae." Says me, staring at the ceiling.
"What is it that you're afraid of?"
"Lots of things. The risk and all.. But what I'm afraid the most is.. my inability to let go. Cause if I dive in, it means I'm ready to let go at some point. I'm not sure if I can let it go if I'm in so deep. That's why I keep having panic attacks or depression, because I couldn't let things go. It's rotting me inside." I sigh.
"The point is, things like that.. haunts me, Tae. But when I said someone like you can never be with someone like me, it means that I'm damaged goods.. it means that I don't deserve you." I turn to him, hoping he'd understand.
"Why do you keep telling yourself that you're not good enough?" Now he's facing his whole body to me. I do the same.
"Because I am.. at least for you." I whisper. He frowns.
"Have you ever thought that people could heal each other?" He asks.
"Yeah?"
"Don't run, Silver. You need us more than you think, and I need you more than you know." He softly says.
His words strikes my heart. Making my visions started to blur, glimmering with my stubborn tears.
"Jake also kinda said the same thing." I chuckle.
"Then Jake's telling the truth." He paused. Gazing my eyes and reach my face. Wiping the water on my cheek, "I thought you didn't want me."
"Tae, I want you.. I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. I thought I'm fine on my own, but it turns out I need you all. You made me happy and I want you to be happy. I shouldn't throw that away.." I whisper.
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Soul Heaven-BTS Reverse Harem
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