Every Seconds With You

Secret: Forty-Three

"What? No, you're kidding right?"

Napalayo ako sa kanya. He already lied to you Amara, malay mo nag sisinungaling yan uli sayo para makita sila CL at LA? Think, Collette! Think. Huwag kang magpakarupok dahil sinabi niya lang sayo na ginawa niya to para sa inyo.

Think wisely. Huwag ka na uli mag papaniiwala basta basta sa mga sinasabi niya sa'yo.

"No, I am not." Tumayo siya mula sa pag kaka-upo at lumapit sa akin na patuloy sa pag atras mula sa kanya.

"Bakit ka naman gagawa ng bahay na ganito para sa amin? Stop lying! You're lying at me again!"

Sigaw ko sa kanya. I gestured my hand to him to say stop dahil patuloy siyang nag lalakad palapit sa akin habang nakangiti.

"Why not? You're my family, Collette. You will always be."

With a shock face with a mouth slightly opened, he kissed me in my cheek and pulled me to come out of his room. Bumalik na lang ako sa huwisyo ko nang nakita kong binuksan niya ang pintuan ng sasakyan niya at pinapapasok ako doon.

I glared at him and didn't entered, instead I stand up and face him.

"Where are we going?"

I pouted my lips and crossed my arms in front of him.

"To your condo, we will fetch our daughters, babe." He smirked and forcedly pushed me to enter his car. "There, diyan ka lang." He closed his car's door at umikot papunta sa driver seat.

Pasalamat siya at hindi masakit ang tulak niya ng pilit sa akin papasok dahil kung hindi, aawayin ko 'to. Hindi pa kami tapos mag usap tungkol sa pag sasabi niya!

Paano niya nasasabi tong mga 'to when in fact, he didn't apologize for what he had done years ago or give me a explanation!

Damn it.

I think about the possible reason that he will give me when we talk, If ever I ask for an explanation. I will try to understand it for sure. I really love what he said, pero paano kung sabi nia lang 'yon tapos mag sisinungaling lang din uli siya sa akin?

I don't think I can handle the pain from him twice. The first one made me nearly insane for missing him so damn much. The fact that I want to hug him tightly, sniff his scent, using his arms as my pillow and sleeping on top of him.

Jamie is always been with me since we stayed overseas. I also became closed with his family and he always taking care of me. Pag may kailangan ako at siya ang katulong ng kapatid ko sa pag asikaso sa akin. He's always with my daughter pag may trabaho ako noon, pinapaalam niya sa akin kung pwede niyang ilabas an mga bata. And because I don't want to isolate my daughters in our house I always let him. Ang problema lang is, ang dami ng laruan ng dalawa pag kauwi nila.

Thinking the things that Jam did to us, I wonder why I didn't fell for him? 7 years, hindi man lang ako nag kagusto kay Jam? Kahit na lagi kaming inaasar ng mga nakakakilala sa amin sa ibang bansa noon, hindi.

Maybe because my heart is already taken by someone here in Philippines? And it's his bestfriend. And I also respect our marriage even if we are separated and he came back to his ugly, I mean ex-girlfriend, Sunny.

My gosh! I can't even imagine that I've been hurt by someone who didn't even reached my damn level. Like, damn. I won't let that girl hurt me or destroyed what I am planning for my family. If I can't fight years ago, then now, I can.

"We're here now." I blinked when I heard his voice and the sound of the seatbelt's clicking sound. I looked outside and was shocked when I saw the condo building where we are staying right now. "Ang lalim ng iniisip mo, ni hindi mo man lang na pansin na andito na tayo."