TW : mentions of cutting and drinking.
y/n's pov
the cool night breeze hits my face, my legs dangling off the window, a bottle of alcohol in my hand while i stare into the sky. i feel tears welling up again making me drink again. maybe it'll ease the pain.
nothing comes out the bottle, nothing but a drop. i throw it on the ground, the glass breaking into little pieces. i sigh and walk to my bathroom, opening the cabinets. i stare at the box infront of me, contemplating if i should do it or not.
i grab the box and see the blades resting in the box. i hold one in between my fingers slowly putting it closer to my arm.
"y/n..." i hear a male voice say from my room. i throw them back in the cabinet and see vinnie walk into my bathroom.
"y/n... are you okay? there's glass all over your floor and tissues and..." he trails off and pushes me to the side, opening the cabinet. i watch vinnie grab the box looking at me with sad eyes.
"y/n... what's going on?"
"it's nothing really."'i shrug and walk to my bed.
"it's obviously something. you're my bestfriend, i know when somethings off." he sits next to me.
"obviously not. i've been like this for the past few weeks and you didn't notice. but i'm fine. i'm okay now." i look at his blurred figure, the alcohol messing with my vision.
"are you drunk?" he grabs my face.
"no."
"you've been crying. is this glass from drinking? y/n.. were you about to...? i thought you were okay. you've been doing so well."
"well shit happens. boohoo" i roll my eyes.
"y/n i'm not letting you go through this again. please promise me you're not gonna do this shit anymore. i don't wanna lose my bestfriend. please."
i look up to see him crying.
"i'll be here with you. you can talk to me whenever. i promise i'll listen. i'm always here. there's other ways to cope. just please don't use this way." he pleads. "promise me."
"i guess." my pinky intertwining with his.
"no. say i promise and mean it."
"i promise."
two days later
narrative
ever since, y/n and vinnie have been together for the most part. vinnie's worried for his bestfriend. she seems "fine" to him but he knows there's something deeper.
"i'll be here in thirty minutes. okay?" the blonde boy reminds the girl.
"got it!" she beams and enters her house. y/n stare into the distance and begins to cry. she's only here for vinnie. she doesn't wanna disappoint him.
y/n weakly brings herself to her bathroom once again.
"i'm sorry vinnie." she sobs and grabs the blade, piercing her skin. how'd i even get here?
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she loses track of time and it's already 30 minutes.
"y/n!! i have something." her bestfriend excitedly enters the house not knowing she possibly broke the promise.
he walks into her room, not seeing her. vinnie begins to panic and barges into the bathroom.
"Y/N!" he sees the girl's arm. he quickly calls 911 and tells them everything.
"y/n..." he holds the weak girl in his arms, the surprise having to wait. the puppy wines and stands there confused.
"you're gonna have to wait. she'll love you later." he tells the white puppy.
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y/n's pov
i open my eyes and shiver from the cold atmosphere. i look down and see vinnie crying on my lap.
"vinnie..."
his head shoots up and he instantly wraps his arms around me.
"please y/n. you promised. i can't lose you." he cries into my neck. guilt builds in me and i regret everything once i remember.
"sorry for breaking the promise..." i say lowly.
A/N
idk if the song actually plays bc every time i do, it takes me to youtube😐
anyways, i think imma update a somewhat happy one today after this.
-n.
idk if the song plays but it was
here i am - leona lewis
my messages are open tho. especially if you can easily relate to this </3
