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y/n's pov
i stare outside the window, curled into a little ball, silently crying. was i not enough? what did i do wrong? i sigh and sit up in bed fiddling with my blankets.
i drag myself down the stairs, at 3 o'clock in the morning, and get something to munch on. i walk to the fridge and look for something to eat.
"nah, i broke up with her already. yeah, you can come over right now." i hear his voice. i wipe my tears and grab a bottle of water. "oh.. y/n..?"
i turn around and face vinnie. "i- i didn't know you were in here." he stutters. i ignore him and walk past him. "i'm sorry y/n."
i turn around and begin to point my finger at him. "you think a sorry is gonna make up for it? you cheated on me with my best friend, you talked down on me behind my back, you used me, you played me, and then on top of that.. MADE ME LOOK LIKE A FOOL INFRONT OF MILLIONS OF PEOPLE!" i press my finger on his chest repeatedly.
"y/n.. i'm sorry. i really am, i just didn't know how to tell you."
"right.. i've heard that excuse before. you knew about my past and still did the same shit. you could've saved us both the time and just been honest."
"i know and-"
"IM PREGNANT VINNIE!!" emily walks into the house and stops once she sees me.
i stare at vinnie as tears roll down my cheek.
"y/n..." he says lowly.
"congrats." i smile and go back to my room.
vinnie's pov
"anyways, IM PREGNANT!! isn't this what you wanted?" emily hugs me while i stare at y/n walk upstairs. i really hurt her.
"yeah.." i respond back.
"do you think it's a girl or boy?" she looks up at me.
"i- uhm- i'm tired. i'm going to bed. you can choose if you wanna join or go home." i leave her in the kitchen.
••••
it's five am and emily's cuddled into my chest. i can hear y/n's sobs and sniffles from her room next to mine.
"it's not that simple kio. i- i'm pregnant with his child. i was gonna tell him today, but obviously i found him in bed with emily." i hear her say.
"so you're not gonna tell him?" kio asks her.
"no, yes? i don't even know." she says.
i feel a tear drop and quickly wipe it, trying to go to sleep.
y/n's pov
it's been 5 months and everybody knows about my pregnancy besides vinnie. i look at vinnie and emily smiling and giggling together.
he looks much happier. i'm happy for him. i start to reminisce on our times together and feel myself get sad again.
flashback
"can you be pregnant PLEASE?" vinnie holds my waist.
"vin, i'm not pregnant. i'm just irregular. it's nothing new." i laugh as i put the cap on the pregnancy test.
"hmm. we'll see in five minutes." he kisses my cheek and we wait on the bed.
5 minutes later
"it's negative love." i look at him as his face frowns. "there's always next time." he smiles and hugs me tightly.
"i just really want to have kids with you." he sighs.
"me too vin. me too."
end of flashback
and all along he was cheating.
"y/n..?"
i look up and see vinnie looking at me. "hmm?"
"you good?" he raises an eyebrow.
"yeah." i plaster a fake smile.
"you're lying." he sits down next to me. i scoot over a bit and look down.
"yeah.. something you were good at." i mumble.
"you're still bringing that up?" he groans.
"YES VINNIE I AM BRINGING IT UP. you don't do shit like that." i get upset.
"it's been five months y/n."
"yeah, five months of me crying and wondering what the fuck i did wrong. you obviously don't care." i get up and get ready for bed.
4:30am
per usual, i'm crying and trying to keep in my sobs. i feel my head begin to pound and everything get blurry around me.
i look down and see a red puddle around my lower back. i quickly get up from the bed and blood trickles down my leg. what the fuck?
some sharp pain in my lower abdomen begins to hit me and i start to groan. "fuck." i start crying and try to regain composure.
"y/n.. what's going on?" i hear vinnie walk in my room. "Y/N. OH SHIT. COME ON. LET'S TAKE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL. YOU DON'T LOOK FINE!" he grabs my arm and gently guides me to the car.
••••
"i'm so sorry to inform you, but your daughter unfortunately passed away." the doctor tells me. everything stops and crumbles into pieces.
tears fall rapidly down my face, but i don't react. it's nothing new, i've been doing this for the past five months. i lost vinnie and now i lost my child.
"y/n.." vinnie brings me back to life.
"IT'S YOUR FAULT! GET OUT. GET OUT. YOU RUINED ME AND MY LIFE! I NEVER WANNA SEE YOU. I HATE YOU." i cry into my hands.
"y/n.. i'm sor-"
"if you're actually sorry, get out my life for good. DON'T COME BACK!" i cut him off.
vinnie's pov
i think about those last words she said to me. now i'm standing above her casket. it's all my fault, she would still be here if i never did what i did. i love you y/n.
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