Trustworthy help

68. Nightmares.

I wake up crying harder then ever.

I cry out and sob as if it's the only way to breath in and out. The desperation behind it seems like a relief. Some of the painful weight from my chest getting lifted. My sobs and hicks and sharp breath fill the room. 'Amelia?' I start to move from the bed, still crying at the painful feeling and the rush of thoughts. 'What's going on?' Corpse asks from down the hall. I try to reach the door but stumble on my way. 'Corpse.' I cry out. Suddenly the footsteps get quicker. 'Corpse' my hand shakes as I reach for the door. 'Nooo.' I hold my chest as I feel my heart break a little more. The door opens and corpse stops in his tracks for just a second. He kneels down, taking the hand that reaches for him in his own. 'Please.' I hick again. 'What happened?' He asks. 'They pop up....' I sniffle. 'Who do?' Corpse asks as he dries my tears. 'Dead..... I... t-they....' corpse moves himself around me and holds me to him. My back pressed against his chest as he holds his arms around my waist. 'They never leave.' I cry out, again being hurt by emotions. I claw at my chest as I so desperately try to get it to stop. 'Amelia- Amelia what are you doing?' Corpse asks as he grips my hands. 'I can't do this.' I say through sobs. 'Come on love. Tell me what's going on.' He's still tightly holding my hands in his. 'So many dead.' I say. I hick and move my hands from his 'everyone that died lives in my head.' I say. His arms go back to my waist. 'Everyone- that.... that died in front of my eyes..... they.... they come back in my mind.' I tell him. His hold tightens as we both stay quiet for a bit.

'What about those who live?' Corpse asks. 'What about those you brought back every time? What about those who you saved?' He asks. I hold my hand over his arm 'aren't they worth more?' He asks. 'They don't weigh as heavy as the ones I couldn't protect. The ones I couldn't keep alive.' He huffs 'sometimes, even the ones alive and are close to us decide to leave from time to time.' He says softly. As if I can feel his heart ache, my chest grows heavier. 'But....' he squeezes me. 'I find it's now more important to be with the ones that want to be with me.' He says. 'Nothing else is beter treatment for the pain of them leaving.' He says. He kisses my shoulder. 'Let me be with you.' He says. I take his hand from my waist and hold it in I'm my own. After a second I turn in his hold, wrapping my arms around his neck 'come to bed with me.' He immediately picks us both off of the ground and brings us back into the bed. We get in and under the covers. 'Stay with me.' He says. 'Please stay with me.' Corpse says as he pulls me closer. 'If you stay with me.' I mumble into his warm chest. 'Always.'

'What if we someday got a kid? And a house, with a yard.' He says. I kiss his chest. 'What about that?' I ask. He hums, but it sounds more like a rumble. 'Love.' He rolls over, laying on top of me. 'Create a family that loves and stays around.' He says. 'Little family of your own, huh.' I say. 'Our own, is what makes it interesting.' He says. I chuckle, pushing back his shoulders a little so he looks at me. He moves up a little as he looks down at me. 'That's the kind of things that should roam in your head.' He says. 'Well thanks to you they now do.' I say. He smiles brightly, looking proud of himself. 'Get that look off of your face.' I say with a laugh before squishing his face. 'Why the fuck would I do that?' He asks as he leans down. 'Don't test me.' I chuckle as he hovers above my lips. 'No?' He smiles as he looks down. 'No.' I say shaking my head as I do so. 'Then can I kiss you?' He asks. I place my hand over his mouth. He whines 'come onnnnn' I giggle before moving my hand 'I was even asking.' He says. He kisses my cheek. 'No kiss?' I smile as I place my hands on the base of his neck. ''Come here.' I say before pulling him down. He smiles into the kiss, making me pull back and chuckle. 'Got what you want?' I ask.

'I got you, don't I. I have more then I could dream off.'