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James potter

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James potter

The boy who made me feel like shit

The boy I can't stop thinking about

Who does he think he is?he thinks he can just come into my life and completely mess it up?

I don't think so

"Yn....I love you but I think-maybe you should stop-umm......stabbing that fork into your sandwich?" Indego said,looking at me concerned

I noticed the sandwich that was once triangular and full of bits of salad,was now all cut up into different chunks of bread,bits of salad everywhere

"Oh...oops" I shrug

"Yn..can we talk?" James' voice speaks up,indego glares at him before nodding her head towards the great hall doors

"I'm gonna go inde,see you back at the common room" I say before grabbing my wand and rushing of

This is what happens every time James or Cece tries to talk to me,I ignore them and find an excuse to leave,probably not the best thing to do but right now I feel like if I did talk to either of them I might snap

The Christmas ball was now in one day and everyone was rushing around to get there dress or suit,Severus and I hung out ALOT more since the James incident and James has left us alone since

Along with Sirius who seemed to be glaring at us every chance he gets,but he knew even if he did say something about me and snape that I would probably just end up ignoring him to

My mother sent me a dress which was WAY to over dramatic but honestly it was flawless and I was wearing it,no questions asked

Regulus and I haven't talked to eachother since that day he told me about our parents kicking Sirius out and I also haven't talked to Narcissa either

Me and Pandora hung out some days,sometimes she'd tag along with me and Severus but other then them and indego,I didn't hang out or talk to anyone else

Me and Sirius kind of fell apart,having his twin sister and bestfriend in a bad way kind of put him on edge,he hardly talked to either of us anymore and I didn't want to be the reason the marauders fell apart

So I know for Sirius' sake I had to talk to James sooner or later,maybe if I get drunk enough at the ball I'll have the courage to talk to him,who knows

I was currently sitting down on my bed,debating if I should just talk to Cece or not,because the tension in this dorm room has been through the roof

"You wanna talk?" Indegos voice filled the room as she jumped down onto my bed next to me

"I don't get it indego,James was the only guy I've ever liked and he just-I just thought he was different" I sigh and hide my face into my pillow,indego pulled my head into her lap and began to run her fingers through my hair

"He's just a punk ass bit-"

"Indego" I say as she sighs

"Fine,you deserve a man who will treat you like the god damn queen you are,you truly are the most amazing person ever" the room falls silent and I let out a smirk

"Wow indego trying to get with both the blacks are you?" I smirk

"No darling,you know your the only black I truly love" indego says making me giggle

"Remember when we were little and we made a plan to run away from the world and get a little cottage in paris and live and die old together?remember our plan we had?" I breathed out making indego smile

"Do you also remember the saying my father taught us that we swore we'd follow?" She asks making me smile

"Books Before Boys Because Boys Bring Babies" we say at the same time before laughing

"I missed you" I sniffle as she smiles down at me

"I missed you to" she whispers back

"Do you have your dress for tomorrow night?" Indego asks as I nod

"Do you?" I ask and she also nods

"Indego,what do you like about Sirius?" I ask as she bites her lip

"He's just a great guy,I know he's your twin and you've had to put up with his your whole life but with me he's just-"

"-a different person?" I ask and she nods

"Yeah,a different person...is that what it was like with James?" She asks and I nod

"Yeah,he wasn't the arrogant twat you normally see,he's nice and funny and romantic and-I don't know I guess he just made me feel different" I sigh and she frowns and pats my head lightly

"He dosent know what he's missing" she whispers "also Sirius says he misses you" she shrugs

"I miss the bloody prat to" I say making her chuckle "Thankyou for always being here for me" I say and she smiles

"Thankyou for always being there for me to"

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Class was extra boring considering it was the history of hogwarts,all we learnt about were the bloody ghosts that turn up while where eating and scare the shit out of us,I couldn't help but try not to fall asleep

Sirius sat infront of me,he kept tilting his head back making his hair fall onto my work and I'd smack his forehead which would make him groan in pain and me laugh

Indego sat next to me,smiling like a dork at the two of us,James sat across from me and I could feel his eyes staring into the side of my head,as if trying to make me look at him

But I never did

Sirius said something about how he was going to wear a tutu to the ball which I told him he actually should,and I swear he really considered it

Narcissa and Lucius are officially dating..gross

And Cece has been disappearing a lot more since I've been ignoring her,probably sneaking of to James' dorm room

All I knew it that I was excited for this ball,but was dreading going home when I'd have to face the real world

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