The closure we both needed

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"Knock knock" I knock on Sirius' door

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"Knock knock" I knock on Sirius' door

I hear shuffling,along with a large 'oww' before the door opened to reveal Sirius,a smile on his face

"What's up" I nod,pushing past him and walking into his room,I flop down onto his bed and he closes the door behind him,grabbing something from one of his drawers

"I know you didn't come in here to say hi so whats really up?" He asks and I smirk

"The roof" he glares at me "ok,look I don't know why you and indego dated-" he groans,as if knowing what I was going to ask "-Sirius,I know I'm your sister and it's probably not ideal to be talking to me about these things but you know I'm always here for you,and I love hearing about your life!"

"Your right,I don't like talking about my love life to you,so can you please go" he says and I frown

"You don't have to be so bitter Sirius,I just wanted to catch up...you know I don't think we've ever had an actual conversation" I say and he nods in agreement

"I guess we haven't"

"Please I really want to know who the lucky person is that has stolen my brothers heart" I wink and he rolls his eyes,throwing the thing that he was holding...a tiny hat? "A tiny hat?" I chuckle and he shakes his head before flopping on the bed beside me

"I bought it for Peter,well for when he's in his animagus form" he shrugs and I chuckle

"Cute,anyway tell me,talk to your favourite person ever"

"Wrong,James is my favourite person ever" he says and I smile

"He's mine to"

"Well back of bitch,I had him first" I roll my eyes and throw the hat at him,he glares at me before seriously putting it on his head making me laugh "look theres a lot of things you don't know about me Yn,I'm not the brother you grew up with"

"Come on Sirius,you know nothing you say could make me love you any less,your my twin brother,my womb mate"

"That's one cool ass name" he smiles and I smile back,then he frowns and looks down "I really didn't wanna tell you this way"

"Tell me what?" I ask,shifting my body so I was lying against Sirius' headboard

"Yn..." he begins taking a deep breath,then slowly he looks up at me,his eyes glistening over "please..when I tell you,if you don't like what I say please please please don't walk away"

"I won't walk about Siri,I'm with you til the end remember?" I look at him,giving him a reassuring smile

"Til the end" he reassures himself "get ready for a long story" I chuckle

"I love long story's"

"Ok" he breaths out "here goes nothing" he looks at me "I firgured it out before indego and I started dating,I knew that...I didn't just like girls..I was scared,but I didn't want to be,I didn't want to have thoughts about boys in the way I thought about girls..so I dated indego because I thought I needed closure,I needed to remind myself that I did only like girls" he begins,taking a deep breath

He looks at me,fear in his eyes

"I was so,so scared,but I guess a part of me did feel like I liked indego,I guess maybe I loved her,but not in the way I should've,I loved her but I knew deep down it wasn't the way a boyfriend and girlfriend should love eachother...and then one night I caught Remus,on the quidditch field,he was sad,lonely and scared" he says softly,nodding his head

"He was scared because he had the same thoughts as me,he didn't know why he was thinking about guys the way he thought about girls,he wasn't ashamed like I was,he went along with it,so we sat together all night,talking and listening to eachother...and that was the night I realised something,the feelings he suddenly grew for you made me...made me jealous.....I was jealous of you,because I knew I had fallen for Remus" I look at him,my mouth agape and my eyebrows raised

"I knew the whole time indego had eyes for regulus and I had eyes for Remus,and I guess the both of us couldn't handle being in a...a relationship where we didn't even have eyes for eachother anymore,so I told her to go for regulus and after we broke up I wasn't ashamed anymore..I knew then and there that maybe..maybe it wasn't just me liking girls and boys...but maybe I only swung for the same team" I quickly sit up and wrap my arms around him as he rested his head on my shoulder

"Your in love with Remus" I smile,running my fingers through his hair "fucking hell yes,oh my gosh you have no idea how happy I am for you"

"He dosent like me back" Sirius says and I laugh lightly

"Only a crazy person couldn't see how in love with you he is"

"Then I guess I'm the craziest person alive" he says and I smile,closing my eyes

I had finally gotten Sirius to open up

He wasn't ever one to talk about his feelings so this was amazing

"I can't believe you'd think I wouldn't accept you,Sirius I don't care wheather you like girls,boys,both,birds or the bees! I don't care you big idiot" I chuckle and he smiles

"Thanks for being my sister" he says and I sigh dramatically

"It is a pretty tiring job if I may say so myself" he rolls his eyes

"You had to ruin the moment didn't you?"

"Well I'm sorry for being so amazing"

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Ya'll I feel so good right now,I'm so on top of this story man i don't even care about my school work-

Ok so maybe I'm a little to energetic right now but it's only cause you guys give me so much life!?🙄

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Update,it's the next day and I'm lying in bed after having a complete breakdown over my assignment,so much pressure..anyway enjoy!

Also part 69.... *attachs emoji of biting lip and fingers on chin*

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