Love or hate?

My Favourite Mess

"Your not going back"

"You not one to make decisions here James" I sighed,watching as he packed the last bit of his stuff

"But I am the one who has promised to many people including your brothers that I would protect you and help you,so therefore your not going back to that-that place"

I grabbed his shirt of the ground and gripped onto it

I love James but I didn't feel like fighting so instead I begun to walk out,knowing he was going to follow me

"Our conversation isn't done yet-"

"-drop it,I'm serious James"

"No your-" he shut-up once he saw my glare "please don't go back Yn"

"Drop it"

"But-"

"Drop it!" James glances sadly at me and looks down,clenching his jaw

"I just want you to be safe"

"I know James"

"You ready to go?" Peter says as he walks around the corner,staring at the two of us and sensing the tense atmosphere "oops"

"Yeah,I'm ready to go" I said before shoving past Peter and walking out towards the train with the rest of the school

I couldn't see anyone I knew except James and Sirius who were trailing not to far behind me,staring at me making me roll my eyes

Once I reached the train I quickly found a compartment and dropped of my main bag

I glanced out the door window and saw James standing in the corridor,a sad look on his face but once Sirius turned to him he acted happy again

I turned my head back towards the window and took a deep breath

Nine weeks without Sirius and James,I can do this

"Want some company?" Sirius asked

"Uhh-sure" the four boys trailed in and all sat down,fighting over the seat next to me

"Piss of you punk ass bitch" Remus mumbled to Sirius who pushed him on the other seat

"Ohhh we got a Swear-Wolf!" Sirius said and I chuckled

Nine weeks,only nine weeks

"I'm sorry about the argument" James whispered into my ear as he grabbed my hand and kissed it,I turned my head and my eyes met his,his face inches from mine "I love you"

I can't do this

I stand up,feeling the tears begin to well in my eyes and walked to the bathroom trying to act as normal as possible

I opened the bathroom door,getting pushed back by some students who couldn't get compartments

I walked inside and the second the door shut I slid down the wall and begun to cry

I can't do this,I can't go back to that place

I can't get abused and abused again to the point where living feels like a waste of time

I can't go back home when James fucking potter has me wrapped around his finger to the point it physically hurts to be without him

And Sirius,the only other person who keeps me sane

"Love?" I hear from the door and I cover my mouth with my hand,trying to stay silent "I saw you leave with watery eyes,and-and if this is about the argument I'm sorry,Yn I'm so sorry I was just trying to protect you-"

"-I'm fine James" I sniffled out but fail to sound fine as my voice cracked

"Can I come in?I don't wanna be creepy but I really just-I need to hold you before you leave to go back to that place"

I used my wand to unlock the door and the second he heard it unlock he quickly walked inside the bathroom and locked the door behind him before walking over to me and sliding down the wall beside me

I gently laid my head on his shoulder and he laid his head on-top of mine,our hands intwining

"It'll be alright" he said as he kissed the top of my head "you'll be ok my love,I promise"

"Thank-you"

"Don't thank me darling" he said before gently lifting my head up and causing me to look at him by placing a finger under my chin "this is my job"

"What?to clean me up like I'm some stain on the carpet?" I joke and he smiles making me smile as he gently wiped my tears away with his thumb,placing a gentle kiss on my cheek

"You'll always be my favourite mess"

"Your favourite mess?"

"Yeah,your a mess,but your the only mess I care about" he shrugs

"Hey!your a mess to!" I try to sound angry but fail making me sigh and lay my head on his arm

"Can I be your mess?" He asks and I chuckle

"Just last Tuesday you were asking to be my bitch"

"I can be your messy bitch" he winks and I laugh,lightly kicking his foot

"Hey!hurry up in there!" A voice outside the door yells and I sigh

James stands up and pulls me up with him, kissing me hard on the lips before resting his forehead on mine

"Let's go shall we?" He asks and I nod,he grabs my hand and unlocks the door where a boy was standing angrily but as he saw us walk out together he smirked and winked at James making me shove into his shoulder making James smirk

We walked back to the compartment and found Sirius and Remus arguing heatedly,to the point where they were pointing in each other's faces

"Well isn't this lovely" I sigh as I shove past them and sit down,James sitting next to me

"Chill out guys,the sexual tension between you two is messing up my hair" James said and everyone fell dead silent

So for the rest of the train ride,no one spoke

And I smiled at the thought

Now that I realise Remus and Sirius could actually make a really cute couple

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