Us { A BTS FF AU } ✔️

when are you going to tell them, then?

Y/N POV

The weekend came and went so fast. Monday came in rolling and the weather couldn't figure out whether it was going to be sunny with snow or raining with no snow. It was just bipolar! One minute it was all nice and the next minute, it's pouring down with rain and the pavements are wet and slippery! 

Yesterday, Sunday, the tension in the air didn't go unnoticed by me. I knew my soulmates knew that something was wrong, because they wouldn't stop looking at me with their questioning glances. Not to mention the flare of worry in the bond. Despite the fact that I wanted to tell them, I found that I couldn't. I mentally and physically couldn't tell them. Call me a coward. Call me weak. I don't care. I have my reasons for not telling them and it's because I don't want to ruin their happiness, ruin their bond and burden them with the dark secrets of my past. 

Soobin-oppa, Jennie-unnie and Jisoo-unnie weren't impressed by my reasoning. We were currently in the staff room, the clock reading half past 12, eating our lunch when Soobin-oppa had asked me if I have already told them what were to happen today. Jisoo-unnie and Jennie-unnie had leaned in to listen to my answer, which, to their dismay and shock, was, ' I haven't told them.' 

" What?!" they all said in unison. I was looking at my cup noodle and my chopsticks now, squirming in my seat as their voices got louder. 

" But why?!" asked Jisoo-unnie.

" Y/N, how come you haven't told them?!" asked Jennie-unnie. 

" This is bad, Y/N-ie. She's all over the news!" Soobin-oppa exclaims. 

" I don't want to burden them with things that has happened in the past, unnies! Oppa! It's pathetic!" I muttered angrily and placing my cup noodle along with my chopsticks down. Suddenly, my appetite was gone.

" I would happy for you to be part of my burden! You are my dongsaeng!" Soobin-oppa exclaims. 

" And they are your soulmates, honey. They deserve to know things that happened in your past, even if you think it's pathetic. And truth to be told, it's not pathetic at all. You saw true horrors happening to your family, and look at you. You survived it and you've found your soulmates. You have a job. You're happy, " Jennie-unnie says, putting her food down, reaching over and placing her hand on my hand. I shook it off gently, frustrated. Why can't they understand?

" Unnie, they are happy as well. I want them to stay happy. I don't need to ruin that. They have spent years together, and we've spent not even 3 months with each other. I am already becoming a burden to them. Besides, she hasn't tried to do anything. Everything should be fine."

" She hasn't tried anything, Y/N, because she's only been out for, what, two hours? It takes around 3 hours and 30 minutes to arrive here in Seoul from Busan. Y/N, please, listen to us," Soobin-oppa says. " Tell them sooner rather than later. "

" What's that supposed to mean?" I asked, exasperatedly throwing my hands up in the air, annoyed. 

" Y/N, you're known to not tell things that are very big and important until someone literally digs it out of you. Your soulmates deserve to know," Jisoo-unnie says gently.

" I know that, but--"

" Then what's the problem? And don't tell me about not wanting to be their burden or something like that. Being someone's burden comes with the responsibility of being in a soulmate bond."

" I don't want to put them in danger! Okay! I don't want Imo to find out I have found my soulmates! I don't want history to repeat itself! I've already lost my parents and brother to her, I don't want my world to be lost to her as well!" I exclaimed in anger, truth rushing out of me. " I don't want her to hurt them like she hurt Eomma, Appa and Oppa."