Through his eyes

7

I woke up with a pounding headache, I rubbed the sleep from my eyes and took in my surroundings. That's definitely not my bedroom,

"You're up"
I froze when I heard that familiar voice next to me, Selena was laying down next to me scrolling and tipping on her phone.
I hurriedly looked under the covers and I was... naked
Fuck fuck fuck fuck,
I felt the heat rise from my neck to my cheeks and ears

"W-what h-happened?!" I asked her before clearing my throat
"Well obviously we had sex" Selena stated still fixed on her phone
"Oh god" I breathed out
I don't remember anything about last night
"Don't worry Peter won't find out" she said adverting her gaze to me
I think I'm going to throw up.

I looked around for my clothes and saw them scattered all over the place, I slowly got up and picked them up and quickly put them on - I don't like it when people see my body the scars and bruises that did not fully heal make me really insecure.

As I put my belt back on I had to ask Selena something "d-did we at least use a condom?" I asked slightly panicking
"I think so"
"You think so?!" I repeated, I felt my heart beating erratically
"I'm on birth control so there's no need to worry" she said chuckling
Of course there's a lot to worry about! Did she never had sex education or something?!
Selena got out of the bed - nothing covering her naked body, I avoided looking at her naked figure.

"You can look Theo" she said giggling
I felt embarrassed, panicked, dirty and sweaty
"You want me to get you a plan b?" I asked still not looking at her
"No you don't have to, I can get it myself" she said getting closer to me,
"I can't wait for the next time" she said  trying to sound seductive

"There won't be a next time Selena, this" I said pointing between us "-was a mistake" I finished leaving the room.

I tip toed towards the stair well and checked out if there was anybody,
when I heard or saw no one I walked back downstairs.
I was feeling through my pockets looking for my phone, i checked what time it was almost to 1pm
Fuck.

I walked past sleeping bodies and almost reached the front door
"Theo?"
Great.
"I thought you were long gone by now" Peter said walking towards me - Peter always bragged that he never gets a hangover, I didn't believe it first but now I do.

"Uhh no" I said scratching my neck
"Why? Usually you're always the first one to leave" he said laughing
"Wait did you drink something?" He asked studying my face
"Noo." Peter said holding a fist to his mouth
"You got laid" he said bewildered before cracking up in front of me
"I-I don't wanna talk about it" I said looking down

"Okay okay, just tell me who and I will leave you alone" he said placing a hand on my shoulder
"No" I said
"Alright you don't have to tell" he said grinning mischievously
"See you on Monday, man" Peter said patting me on my back.

•••

I would be lying if I said I'm not afraid, I don't know what's waiting behind the door for me - especially since dads car was parked in our driveway meaning he's home.
I opened the door and got inside, I placed my keys and car keys on the drawer and went further inside.
I panicked a little when I saw my dad sitting on the couch already looking at me
"I'm sorry, I know I should've texted or called" I said calmly
"You're sorry?" My dad asked rather to calm as he walked towards me - there was a time we were the same height but not anymore, I'm a little taller now.

"You're gonna be sorry when I beat the shit out of you!" He shouted right in my face,
He grabbed me by neck and shoved me against the wall causing a few pictures to fall down
I was struggling to breath since his hands were tight around my neck

"D-dad?!" I tried to say but it sounded more like I'm wheezing, I tried to remove his hands from my neck but I couldn't

"You tried to run away just like your mother! I know it!" He yelled letting me finally go.
I crouched over and started coughing, he then kicked me in my lower abdomen causing me to fall down on the scattered glass, maybe I should fight back - but he's still my dad I can't just hit him.

"You son of a bitch!" He shouted. I closed my eyes so I wouldn't have to see it but I definitely felt every hit, every punch and every kick on my body.

•••

I must have blacked out because when I opened my eyes I was still laying on the floor
something poked me multiple times
"T-Theo?" I heard Will's voice, I looked to my side and saw him kneeled next to me dried tears on his cheek.

I've never wanted him to see me like that, I didn't wanted him to see what our father is capable of since it would probably fuck him up
just like me. And Will deserves better than that.

"A-Are you dead?" He asked poking me again this time I flinched because it hurt,
"No I'm not dead" I croaked out
"You shouldn't be here Will, you can hurt yourself" I groaned, trying to get up
"I will get mom" he said getting up
"No! No. I'm fine, really" I said
"But Theo you are bleeding and you have cuts a-and Glas in your Skin" he said holding his tears back
"I'm fine" I said as I managed to get up, I steadied myself on the wall and made slow steps towards the stairs.

When I reached the bathroom I didn't have the guts to look myself in the mirror, I just stripped and took a cold shower.