Through his eyes

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"Yes he will" I said responding for Theo.
I smiled when I saw how Ashley and Theo were having a conversation together.
But I frowned when I remembered the conversation between Selena and Kayla I think, I still need to tell Theo about that.

"Theo, can we talk real quick?" I asked pointing towards the restrooms
"Yea sure" he said getting up.

••

"Soooo" I said clapping my hands,
Theo was just standing there hands hidden in his pockets.

"You know that uhm... a lot people know what happened between you and Selena at Peters party" I tried to say as calm as possible.
At the mention of Selena's name Theo furrowed his eyebrows,
"And you know that you slept together- but!" I said holding my finger in the air
"I've heard a conversation between Selena and Kayla and.." I was fidgeting with the fabric of my shirt
"Basically you two didn't slept together and she drugged you" I said in a rush, looking up to meet his green-ish orbs looking at me.

I don't know what's going in his head but I knew there was a lot going on inside his head by the way his brows were creased.

"Theo?" I tried to reach out for him but he flinched and took a step back,
"Theo? Are you okay?" I asked slightly concerned because his hands were shaking now.
"I-I" He stuttered frightened,
"Should I go get Peter?" I asked not knowing what to do,
He shook his head
What?!

He was leaning on the wall steadying himself but he slumped down to the floor.
I went to sit next to his shaking body,
I took his hand into mine - it seemed like direkt body contact made it worse so I let go of his hand.
"I'm... fine" Theo managed to say
"I just- need a second" he grunted closing his eyes, taking deep breath.
"Alone" he said through clenched teeth's,
"Are you sure?" I asked, I couldn't just let a person with anxiety or panic attack all by them self. I'm not stupid.
"Yes... just please- go" He managed to say, even tough I didn't want to I nodded and went back to the others.

"Where's Theo?" Ashley asked me as I sat down
"He is uhh at the toilet" I lied quickly.
Peter gave me a knowing look before getting up and walking towards the bathrooms.

•••

"What were you and Theo talking about as you went away?" Ashley asked lowly.

We finished our meals and went back to Theo's truck, when we arrived it was Theo driving and Peter in the passenger seat but now Peter was driving and Theo's in the passenger seat. His head was turned to the window and he wasn't talking since he came back from the bathroom with Peter.

I feel like it was my fault that happened, maybe I shouldn't have told him that or in a different way - anyways I feel like it's my fault.

"Nothing important" I said in a dismissive tone, I didn't felt like talking right now.
"But-"
"No need to worry Ash" I said before she could finish her sentence.
The look on her face told me that she wasn't believing me, I sighed
"I'm gonna tell you later" I mouthed, Ashley's mouth went into an 'o' before she nodded with her head.

•••

"We have 10 minutes until class" Ashley informed me
"I need to go to my locker, see you in class?" Ashley asked and I gave her thumbs up.
Peter locked Theo's car meanwhile he was leaning on it hands deep in his pockets

"Theo?" I called to gain his attention,
his head peeked up
"I hope it's not my fault that-"
"It's not" he said quickly, did his voice just got deeper than usual? Yes it did. Does it make me feel some type of way? Yes it does.
"Oh okay" I breathed out.
"See you around then" I said before walking inside the school

•••

Theodore
Stupid.
Stupid.
Stupid.
Stupid.
Stupid.

I thought as I slammed my head against my locker,
"Are you done?" Peter asked trying to hide his laugh.

Ever since that lunch with Imani and Peters friends, Peter believes that I am crushing on Ashley which I'm not - my heart belongs to somebody else.

"That Ashley chick probably didn't even noticed" he tried to assure me
"That's not the point Peter" I grumbled
"Then what it is?" He asked still amused
"Me and Selena never had sex. She drugged me and wanted to use me" I said using my locker door as a shield from Peters face. When I noticed that he didn't respond I peeked from my locker towards him, his hands were rubbing his temples.
"It brought up some thoughts I would rather forget, that's why I had a panic attack earlier" I explained.
"I'm sorry man"
"Don't be. I don't like when people pity me" I muttered.

Peter raised his hands in surrender
"Alright lil bro" he said mocking me
"You are just three months older, Peter" I said getting annoyed by him
"I know lil bro, and that's okay" he said talking to me like I'm a little child
"I think you tend to forget that I'm taller and stronger than you Peter" I stated
"Ohhh are you threatening me right now lil bro?" He asked before erupting into laughter,
I just sighed and walked away from him.

A/N: New chapter!
Sorry that you guys hat to wait so long for an update but tbh I don't know why it took me so long lmao