Through his eyes

70

Theodore

There was a knock on my door,
I've locked myself in my bedroom since last night. I didn't feel like talking to or seeing anyone right now - yes I'm sulking so what? Men have emotions too and I would be lying if I said I didn't let some tears drop.

"Go away" I shout pulling the blanket over my head

"I know you're not feeling necessarily good right now Theo, but you gotta go to school" Zoe said and I rolled my eyes
"I'm not going!" I declare annoyed.

Imani has been blowing up my phone since last night and I didn't bother reading her messages.

I don't know if an apology is going to be enough for me to get rid of this unsettling feeling, it just doesn't sit right with me that she would willingly kiss that lame excuse of a guy. She practically said she would've cheated on me if it weren't for her parents being there, literally leaving me speechless.

I've spent years admiring her from afar, daydreaming what it would be like to be her boyfriend and sometimes when I felt a little silly even her husband, I was completely head over heels for her and I still am.

I love her, there's no denying in that.
Maybe she was just saying that to get back at me or to get me all riled up, all I know is that it just felt like a punch in the gut. What was he even doing at her house in the first place?! I told that dumbass to keep his distance and yet he seemed to get as close as he could get.

My sadness quickly turned into anger and I felt like breaking something or rather punching someone.

After I heard Zoe and Will leave I got out of my bed to take a cold shower and calm my raging thoughts down.

•

"In todays video I'm going to show you have to make the perfect brownies from scratch"

I was watching a YouTube video about how to make brownies, don't laugh at me but in my 18 years of living I've never made brownies from scratch before.

I was doing everything the exact same way the girl in the video was doing. I poured the melted chocolate into the batch and licked the remaining chocolate off my finger. I added some extra chocolate chunks to the mixture and spread them evenly into the form.

I put the batch into preheated oven and used the remaining time to clean the mess I made.

I still had a little over 15 minutes left until the brownies were done, so I decided to clean and vacuum the whole house. My timer went off just in time I finished vacuuming the living room.

I let the brownies cool off already looking for the next recipe to try when my phone ringed. It was Ezra probably just wanting to know why I'm not at school. I didn't pick up though, I'm just gonna text him later.

The front door opened and it was Zoe,
"Look who decided to leave his bedroom" she greets as she enters the house. I ignore her comment deciding on making pesto for dinner today,

"Mmh smells good in here, what are you making?" She asks stepping inside our kitchen
"I made brownies" I state simply
"Can I try one?" She asks excitedly

"Sure" I shrug and we reach for the same knife on the table, our fingertips brushed against each other and I immediately withdrew my hand, which Zoe noticed.
I cleared my throat avoiding looking at her direction,

"Wow they're really good" she said after trying the brownies I made
"Thanks" I uttered quietly as I looked if we had all the ingredients to make pesto with pasta

"Do... do you want to talk about it?" Zoe asks after a few seconds of silence and I turn around to raise my eyebrow at her
"Talk about what?" I ask, since when was she that interested about what's going on in my life.

"Why you're so upset? Is because of your Girlfri-"
"It's nothing." I cut her off quickly
"Are you sure? I'm sure I can give you some advice-"
"What do you want Zoe?" I cut her off again,

Where was all this 'I'm gonna be a good stepmom' nonsense coming from? That's the most I've talked to Zoe than in 3 months combined.

"I-I just want to help you" she said just below a whisper
"Well I don't need nor do I want your help!" I snap and dropped the idea of preparing dinner.
I stomped upstairs and shut the door with a loud bang.

•••

I don't know when or how but I eventually fell asleep and woke up to the sound of Will playing rather loudly in his bedroom.

I let out a huff when I heard Will enter my bedroom, I felt him climb into my bed when he removed the blanket from my face
"Are you sick?" Will asks with wide eyes and I chuckle lightly

"No I'm not sick" I say hoisting myself up to lean my back against the headboard
"Mom said you're upset so I drew this for you" Will said handing me his drawing,

Two little figures standing next to a car.

"That's me, that's you and this is your car. And this is the sunset" Will explained pointing at different things on his drawing

"Thank you Will, I like it a lot." I say smiling at him as I ruffled his blond curls
"Your hair has gotten quite long, you wanna cut it?" I ask Will as I noticed the length of his hair
"I want my hair to be dark like your hair" he said sounding upset

"Maybe when you're a little older" I spoke softly and Will groaned in annoyance.
"Fine" he grumbled "can we go to the park?" Will asked his mood doing a complete 180

"Uhhh"

"Please Theo pleaseee!" Will pleaded and I sigh as I got up from my comfortable position on my bed

"Alright grab your jacket I'll be down in a minute"

•••

Well well well... life goes on