Theodore
I love her.
The way she smiles.
The way her eyes light up.
Her laugh, her voice, God I love her voice.
The way she makes her hair and can look different each time but still as beautiful as before.
I love her.
She's sitting in front of me, eating silently, avoiding eye contact. I'm not slow, I know why.
Which is why I took her out for dinner
To talk.
"How do you like the food?" I ask leaning back into my chair, Imani looks up for a split second before breaking the eye contact again.
"It's good" she said measly putting another spoon of rice in her mouth,
I sit upright mentally preparing for what's about to come.
"We need to talk" I state simply
"Talk about what?" She says a little bit too quick
"You know about what" I try calmly and she lets the spoon drop onto her plate
"We already talked about it" she says while holding the the eye contact
"We argued about it but never really talked about it"
"What's there even to talk about?! You're leaving, I get it! You want me to throw you a goodbye party or what!" Imani said slightly raising her voice, causing others to glance at our table but I could care less.
"Imani, I can see how it's eating you up. You're hurting and I don't want to be the cause of why" I say softly
"I think it's time that we talk about our future you know?" I add
"What if we don't even have a future together" she says crossing her arms and I felt my heart drop
"W-what do you mean? Imani serio-"
"Theodore you didn't really expect me to wait three or more years for you to come back home and act like as if you never left?!" She cuts me off and I feel the air get stuck in my lungs.
"You are leaving, Theodore. You are leaving this fucking continent! You can't just hit pause when you feel like it! I have a life too! And I can't sit here eagerly waiting for you to come back home!"
"You won't have to! I'll visit every vacation! Every goddamn holiday! Even the on the weekends if that makes you feel better!" I try to reason but she scoffs shaking her head
"What if you realise you want to stay there, in Paris? Why even move back here when you got all the opportunities over there? What if you meet another woman? And you fall- And you fall in love with her?" Imani lists as her voice broke
"I don't want to be the one holding you back, Theodore"
"You are not!" I whisper desperately
"Imani I love you, I can't imagine a life without you, I need you" I say feeling my eyes sting
"Please, Please don't do this to me" I plead reaching for her hand which she withdrew
"I don't think I can do this any longer" she said looking down and I felt my stomach turn
"So..." I start having to take a deep breath or else I would start crying
"So you're... breaking up with me?" I ask hoping she will say no or burst out laughing telling me it's a prank or literally do anything but break up with me.
"I... I don't know" she says almost whispering
Glad it's not a yes but it ain't a no either.
"Fuck" I breath out running a hand trough my hair and down my face
"I need a clear answer Imani!" I almost plead
"I think I need some time to think" she says looking down
"What the fuck is that even supposed to mean?!" I ask on the verge of losing my mind
"It means that I need time to think this through!" She says sternly
"You got time right now no?! Well then think about it now!"
"That's not how this works-"
"Enlighten me then! I'm all ears!"
"You're being cruel right now" she said tight lipped
"Oh sorry I'm the one who's being cruel? If I remember correctly you're the thinking of breaking up with me because I want to study somewhere else which happens to be too far away for your liking!"
"That's not fair, You know that" she says her voice breaking as she quickly wiped away a tear
My heart stings because I now I'm the one who's making her feel this way,
"I-I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"
"You know what? I made my decision" she cuts me off sitting upright
"No Imani wai-"
"I'm breaking up with you"
I'm breaking up with you
I'm breaking up with you
I'm breaking up with you
I'm breaking up with
I'm breaking up
I'm breaking
My whole world just broke into pieces. As if someone just ripped my heart out and stomped on it before giving it back to me.
I was hot. My whole body is hot. I'm sweating.
Everything is moving in slow motion and I can see her lips moving but I hear no sound.
I use the table to balance myself up and stumble towards the exit.
It wasn't until I was outside breathing in fresh air that all the noise came back.
I hoisted myself against the wall trying to calm my rapidly beating heart,
I couldn't stop them. I couldn't stop the tears from coming and rushing down my face.
That shit hurts. It really does hurt.
I heard the sound of clicking heels and I quickly wiped my tears away.
"Theo? Are you okay?" Imani asks kneeling besides me
"Are you having panic attacks again?" She asks placing a hand on my shoulder but I brush it off
"Fuck off" I tell her sternly
"I know you're upset Theo, but you gotta understand where I'm coming from" she pleads
"I don't want to see you right now" I state turning away from her
"It's for the best Theo" She whispers while getting up
"Do you want me to call you an uber?" I offer not looking up
"I'm good. Thanks"
The End
W: no I'm kidding lmao. It ain't over yet😏
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