Broken and Unfixed

Chapter Forty-Five

#BAUChapterForty-Five

Nagising ako sa naramdaman kong marahang pag-halik sa may pagitan ng hita ko. My eyes were still half-closed but I could clearly see him kissing and tasting me down there. I was about to say a word but then the moment I opened my mouth, a loud moan escaped. That's when I felt his tongue and fingers moving inside my wetness.

"Shit," I cursed. Awtomatikong napa-sabunot ako sa mga buhok niya at mas lalo pa siyang idiniin sa pagkababae ko.

What a wonderful morning I have. Bulong ko na lang sa isip ko. Saglit na tumigil ang bibig niya sa pagkababae ko, at hinalikan 'yun pataas sa dibdib ko. I don't know how he undressed me that fast, naramdaman ko na lang 'yung mainit niyang bibig sa may dibdib ko. He was sucking my breasts alternately, and biting my nipples afterwards as his fingers continue to do their work inside me.

Napakapit na lang ako sa bedsheets at napakagat sa labi ko nang maramdaman ko ang pamumuo sa puson ko. He knew I was close but he just made his fingers move faster. I was screaming and shouting his name hanggang sa kumawala 'yung mga dapat kumawala sa'kin.

"Sorry for waking you up, but I think morning sexercise really hits different." He said before claiming my lips and kissed me torridly. Our tongues are both dancing with the same rhythm. Kung saan saan rin dumadapo 'yung kamay naming dalawa.

His kisses trails down to my neck and he sucked my skin leaving marks. He would even bite my shoulders and leave lovebites. I don't know what to feel, pain, together with the desire are being burried here in my chest. Nang hugutin niya 'yung daliri niya sa loob ko ay maingat niya 'yong dinala sa bibig niya at walang anu-ano'y tinikman niya 'yon na parang lollipop.

He looked so sexy doing that.

"You really taste good, baby." He sexily whispered on my ear before leaving my top. He was about to positioned himself but I pulled his arm and made him lay on the bed. I immediately crawled on his top and began grinding my wetness against his shaft.

I placed my palms on his chest as I started to grind faster. I even teased him by brushing the tip of his shaft to my folds. I could see lust and desire in his face. His face was beat red and he often bit his lips.

I lowered down my face to kissed him. He responded to my kiss and sucked my tongue. I held his shaft and positioned himself into mine.

My lips parted a bit in pain when I slid his shaft in me. Ilang beses na namin 'tong ginagawa but still I couldn't get to used with his size. He was long and thick to handle. I felt his hands on my waist to guide my body from moving on top of him.

"Good girl," He smiled at me as he grabbed my breasts. I started to move up and down as I ride him like a cowgirl. Seconds later, his hips began to move as he tries to meet every thrust I made.

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After we made love for a couple of rounds, we fell asleep. It was 2:00 in the afternoon when we decided to leave the cabin to eat. Kaya naman para kaming nag-papaligsahan sa pabilisan kumain dahil gutom na gutom talaga kaming dalawa. Halos mabusog kami ni Dylan dahil nakakailang order kami ng pagkain, matapos no'n ay nag-swimming na lang kami sa dagat.

Mabuti na lang at may bikini ako sa loob ng loose shirt ko kaya naman tinanggal ko na lang 'yung damit ko bago lumusong sa dagat. Si Dylan naman ay nag-topless na lang.

Diyos ko, kung puwede lang lumayo ako kay Dylan ay gagawin ko. Nakakaakit naman kasi talaga 'yung katawan niya! Parang hinulma! Perfect toned body, broad shoulders.. down to his six pack abs, and damn his v-line! Good thing it was private resort. Baka mamaya makasabunot ako ng mga malalanding babaeng titingin kay Dylan.

"Baby, you done staring at me?"

"Kapal mo. Ikaw nga rin nakatingin sa'kin." Akusa ko pabalik. Totoo naman rin. Sabi niya pa nga kung pwede lang daw ay 'wag na kaming mag-swimming, do'n na lang daw kami sa cabin at doon na lang niya 'ko sisisirin.

Minsan ang gago rin kausap ni Dylan, e.

Halos kalahating oras pa kaming nag-langoy sa dagat matapos ay para kaming mga bata na nag-tatampisaw pa tapos gagawa ng sand castle. Nag-lakad lakad pa kami sa palibot ng isla habang magkahawak ang kamay. Ninamnam namin 'yung malamig na simoy ng hangin kasabay nang mahinang pag-hampas ng alon sa karagatan.

"Naayos mo na 'yung mga papers na kailangan mo 'pag.. 'pag aalis ka na?" I looked down and bite my lip.

"What happened to 'don't talk about my Canada thing'?" He asked me back. Napag-usapan kasi namin na as long as he's here, he's still here, hindi namin pag-uusapan 'yung pag-alis niya. We should be enjoying ourselves and the remaining time that he's not yet leaving.

I shrugged by the thought of that. Ayoko naman rin pag-usapan dahil nasasaktan lang ako. Pakiramdam ko, dala niya 'yung kalahati ng puso ko kapag umalis siya.

"I know one day would come, so I'm preparing myself. And actually, I've already prepared. Para kapag umalis ka, hindi na gano'n kasakit." Halos pabulong kong binanggit 'yung dulo. Kasi hindi ko naman alam kung by that time ba, hindi talaga gano'n kasakit. O masakit talaga, ayaw ko lang tanggapin.

Alam kong magiging masakit 'yon for me. For us. Pero we had no choice. Hindi naman puwedeng balewalain niya 'yung pangarap niya at 'yung opportunity na 'yon para lang sa'kin. I don't wanna be selfish.

All I wanted is happiness. For him, and for me. Pero bakit sa tuwing nalalapit na kami sa kasiyahan na ninanais namin, may mga bagay na dumadating para maging hadlang samin?

"Kaye, I told you.. If you want me to stay, I'll stay."

"Dylan, of course. I want you to stay. I would love the idea of you, being so close to me, for the rest of our lives.." Dahan-dahan akong tumingin sa mga mata niya at hinaplos 'yung mukha niya. Nangungusap 'yung mata niya na para bang naguguluhan siya kung aalis ba siya o mananatili siya.

"But you can't just stay here and forget about your dreams.." Sabi ko pa. Natatandaan ko pa noon, noong bago pa lang kaming mag-kasintahan, palagi niyang kinukwento sa'kin 'yung mga kamag-anak niya sa ibang bansa, and how huge their company is. Sabi niyang gusto niyang mag-trabaho do'n 'pagtapos niya mag-aral.

At ito na 'yon.

He's too close to his dreams.

Hindi puwedeng basta basta niya na lang bitawan 'yon.

"Paano ka?"

"Don't mind me. Kaya ko.." Kakayanin ko.

Kasi mahal kita.

Hindi ko na napigilan 'yung sarili ko nang maramdaman kong isa isa nang nagbagsakan 'yung mga luha galing sa mga mata ko. Kaagad ko namang pinunasan 'yon at umiwas ng tingin. Pero nahuli ni Dylan ang mukha ko at marahang pinawi 'yung mga luhang kumawala sa mata ko.

"Stop crying. Please? Nasasaktan akong makita kang ganiyan.."

"I can't.."

"I want to stay, but-"

"Dylan, I'll be okay. I know how much you love your dreams. You've worked hard to achieve your dreams. Makukuha mo na 'yung pangarap mo na 'yon, Dylan."

Kahit mahirap para sa'kin. Kahit masakit. Kung iyon ang makakapag-pasaya sa kaniya.

"Makakamit ko nga 'yung pangarap ko. Pero mawawala ka naman sa tabi ko." Nakita kong nag-tubig na rin 'yung mata ni Dylan at kasunod no'n ay ang pag-luha niya.

Bago pa man mauwi sa kung saan 'yung pag-uusap namin ay agad kong niyakap ang braso ko sa bewang niya at sinandal 'yung ulo ko sa dibdib niya. Kung saan halos rinig ko na 'yung tibok ng puso niya.

Niyakap niya 'ko pabalik. Kaya mas hinigpitan ko pa 'yung yakap ko sa kaniya. Mas mahigpit.. na para bang ayaw ko na siyang pakawalan. Na para bang ayaw ko na siyang bitawan.

"Mahal na mahal kita.." Rinig kong bulong niya. His voice was breaking and his shoulders were shaking.

Ako rin. Sobra kitang mahal. Bulong ko na lang bago higpitan pa lalo 'yung yakap ko sa kaniya.

"I love you so much, to the point that I'm willing to give up everything.. just to be with you. Because without you by my side, feels like death for me."