Dark Side of the Castle (Complete version)

Chapter 64

                            𝕷𝖆𝖘𝖙 𝕯𝖆𝖙𝖊

I am busy listing out the things that I'll be buying for the Christmas gifts I'm planning to buy tomorrow. I can't believe ganito pala kahirap mag isip ng mga ipangreregalo sa mga tao? Parang lahat nalang ng bagay na naiisip ko ay mayroon na sila or di naman ay kaya nila itong bilhin dahil may pambili naman sila. Tss

I am unconsciously frowning as I tap the pencil on my head while sitting at the coffee table in my balcony's room. Ugh!

Lily is looking at me with his eyes squinting. "Ano naman ngayon ang pinoproblema mo ha?" sambit niya na tila naaasar nanaman sa ginagawa ko. She even lean on the table and looked at me nearer.

"Ikaw hindi kana nawalan ng problema sa buhay ano? O sadyang pinoproblema mo lang talaga lahat ng bagay sa mundo" pangl-lecture nanaman niya sakin.

I breathe heavily and eased my shoulders as I glanced at her in front of me sitting as well.

I just gave her a tired expression with a weak smile on my face and shook my head. "I better stop thinking too much about this, as they say its the thought that counts"

Lily raised her eyebrows giving me a proud teasing look. "I'm glad you finally realized girl"

I leaned on my back as I stretched both of my arms upward. "So kumusta na nga pala kayo ni Adrien? I haven't heard any news about him lately"

"Seriously? Bakit ka naman biglang naging concern sa amin ha?" nagtataka niyang tanong.

"Nothing. Naisip ko lang. You both don't usually tell me about your relationship... well it's not like gusto kong manghimasok, I just want to hear you tell me some more things about the both of you"

Ang dalawang ito, simula nang naging official couple na ay madalang ko nalang makasama ng sabay. Siguro marahil mas gusto nilang magdate nang silang dalawa lang at baka makaistorbo ako. That's what I am thinking kaya ayos lang. Pero minsan hindi ko rin maialis sa isipan ko na namimiss ko na silang ka bonding ulit. They are my bestfriends for the longest time, at hindi pala madaling masanay na parang out of the picture na ako madalas...

Lily just smiled warmly looking at me with such soft look in her eyes. "Sorry for not always telling you more things about us, ano kasi..." nag iwas siya ng tingin na tila nahihiyang ituloy ang mga susunod niyang sasabihin. "It just kinda feel awkward since I know Adrien liked you so much before but it's not like I'm jealous or anything!" biglang mabilis niyang binawi at inistretch pa ang kanyang kamay sa harapan ko upang sabihing wala akong dapat ikabahala.

I can help but look at her with a smug look on my face. Oh how I can tell how much this girl loves Adrien, and I am so touched when she said that she tried her very best na pigilan ang nararamdaman niya para hindi magkaroon ng awkwardness sa aming tatlo but eventually love really is unstoppable.

Hinawakan ko ang kamay niyang nasa ibabaw ng mesa. "I'm glad you finally let your feelings show. You both deserve each other" I caressed her hands and smiled. "I can't express how much I am happy hearing you both finally understood each others feelings. To be honest, there's still a feeling inside me that feels so bad about not loving Adrien the way he wanted me to love him before... kaibigan ko siya at wala akong magawa sa nararamdaman ko. It's not easy to see someone precious to you feel so hurt because of you, at alam kong sasaktan lang namin ang mga sarili namin kung bibigyan ko siya ng pagkakataon. And it's not like I wanted him to expect anything from me. And as for you, I actually wanted to say sorry for not realizing how you felt before. I'm so sorry for being so insensitive..."

Lily removed my hands that holds her and she held mine instead. "You don't need to say sorry for anything. Adrien and I... we realized that maybe we weren't suppose to be together before. Baka hindi rin naging matatag ang pundasyon ng nararamdaman namin kung sakaling naging kami noon. Alam ko at ramdam ko kung gaano ka niya kamahal at aaminin ko din na nagkaroon ako ng doubts nung sinabi niyang ako na ang mahal niya ngayon. It was a very hard and painful process bago ko natanggap ang lahat, he showed me and made me feel that he is sincere and that's what made me finally accept the feelings I had for him"