My Destination, My Bondita

44 - The Light Inside the Tunnel

I want to reveal to all of you that this story is a representation of how things have gone in the show itself, but the makers could not show due to controversy. 

I get a lot of comments that they wish the show could have gone this way, but if this happened, the show would have been banned and shut down immediately. Therefore, in the show these things were shown very subtly. I have studied the show and done a lot of research before writing this story. This story is NOT what I wish happened, but rather what REALLY happened in a subtle level -- when their realizations ACTUALLY happened.

If anyone gets a chance to rewatch these tracks (starting from the Parivarik Jeevan track onwards), then watch it with the POV of the story. You will get it. His refusal to accept Bon out of fear, his rebound to a superficial 'love', his final acceptance on the cliffside when Bon was losing her life (hint for an upcoming chapter), and then never turning back towards that so called superficial 'love' of his ever again. The way he loved her so divinely that he didn't get lost in his feelings but rather chose to empower her and make her strong instead of accepting those feelings of hers. Small instances where he would look at her, blush and smile. Dreams he had. :) At the same time, they kept it very realistic with Bon's teenage phase and her own growing feelings -- don't we all fall weak and go through struggles at points when we are growing? This is why there are many parallels between this story and the show. Everything that I am writing here is what the makers would have shown had there been no issue of controversy... and actually the makers did show it, but on a very subtle level. :) 

And it is not a bad thing, because their love is not a typical kind of love. It's at a divine level, a level which is all encompassing and TOTALLY pure, just like this story. If you watch these tracks with the POV of this story, you will definitely see what I mean. 

Remember, it's easy to get into the details of the nuances of their feelings in writing, but much harder on screen, and that too on Indian TV, where everything is judged and scrutinized so much. 

Sorry for the long note, but I wanted to share this before I posted the chapter. Again, please no negative comments about the show, its characters, or any actors. This note is not here to get into debates, but rather to show you guys a perspective that maybe you wouldn't have noticed. Negative comments will be deleted.

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When Anirudh kept on kissing her cheek and telling her that she was special to him, Bondita could feel the radiating warmth in his words, in his kisses, and for some reason, Bondita felt a hope ignite inside her heart. 

A hope that maybe she really was his wife. That she really was special to him. That the way her heart was hammering inside her chest as he kissed her, was not something she should be afraid of. Rather, something that she should be proud of and accept whole-heartedly. 

She turned her face slightly and looked at him -- he wasn't too far from her. In fact, his face was very close to hers, and she could feel her whole body erupt in goosebumps. 

"I'm not a burden?" she asked softly, as he looked at her with nothing but compassion in the purest of forms. 

He brought his fingers up to her cheeks, wiping away the remaining tears there. 

"No Bondita," he whispered to her. 

"I didn't ruin your life?" she asked him. 

"Not at all Bondita," he told her softly, "You made it better." 

When he said that, her heart soared and she felt a blush reach her cheeks again. She made his life better? 

"But you still married me to save my life," she whispered.