Amelio swallowed his spit as he sat closer to Raymond. It was currently 10:00 pm, Raymonds parents were at a casino and they were left alone for the night. 'Is it finally gonna happen?' Amelio thought. So far in their relationship they only did full on make-outs, no blowjobs, a couple of handjobs, but nonetheless, they were pretty happy. Raymond wrapped an arm around him and started giving him small kisses on his face. "You look really pretty today" he muttered and made Amelio's heart flutter. "T-thank you" he stuttered back and nuzzled into him. Raymond cleared his throat a bit and Amelio noticed his flushed face, "Um... so uh.. would you like to... move this into the bedroom?" It was pretty rare to see him stutter like this. Amelio felt his heartbeat quicken, "Um.. sure! Yeah" They were both so nervous, it was an experience that they'll both be subjecting themselves too. Raymond lead Amelio up the stairs, turning the tv off in the process, before quickly following. Amelio looked inside his room, it was so neat and clean. "I cleaned it before you came today" Amelio looked at him. "For me?" He asked and Raymond nodded.
Amelio sat on the clean bed. "So uh.. what do we do now?" Raymond smiled a little. "Good thing I'm not the only one with no experience" He walked over and gently pushes him down, "I guess... we start off slow?" Amelio felt his face heat up and brought his hand up, stroking Raymond's face. "Y-yeah" Their lips came in contact as they explored each other's mouth. Getting used to every inch of their mouth, both eagerly awaiting for what was to come afterwards. They both pulled away, a string of saliva trailing from their mouths before Raymond got off. "I-I'm gonna go f-freshen up" He gave a quick peck before going into his bathroom. Amelio heard the shower start to run.
"I-I should get ready too" He started to strip his clothing off and stopped when he heard a familiar voice. "You're heartbeat is... fast. Are you okay?" Amelio smiled softly, "Hello Mr.Voice" he responded softly. "I-I'm just... excited. Yeah" Amelio sounded like he was convincing himself rather then... The voice. "You sure sounded convincing. I thought this was your big moment?" The voice asked and Amelio put a hand against his chest. "I....I don't know" He was fine, his heartbeat was fast because he was excited. He was gonna have sex with... with...
Amelio gulped and started hyperventilating. When did his vision get blurry? He looked around the room slowly, it was fading. He heard muffled noises and a hand was on his shoulder. He jolted and turned to see Raymond there, wearing nothing, but a towel, "Amelio, come back to me" Raymond held both his shoulders as Amelio started calming down his breathing. "What happened?" He asked gently and Amelio felt tears prick in his eyes, "I-I can't do this"
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"You had a panic attack?!" Max asked as Jerry held Amelio close. Stroking softly at his hair, "I-I don't know what happened" he felt tears prick at his eyes again. "I-I just didn't w-wanna do it. N-not yet at least... R-Raymond understood" He felt guilty and upset, but with himself. He hiccuped as he remembered how saddened Raymond looked as Amelio told them they needed a break. Jerry kissed his forehead and kept petting him. Max sighed and rubbed his face, "Ami... I think we need to get you on medication." Amelio looked at him. "If this is about t-the sex-" Max stopped him. "Ami, I don't give a shit if you were gonna fuck the guy. I'm worried about you! Your health! I-it's worrying the shit out of me. God, I don't know why we didn't get you on medication sooner, I'm sorry- I-" He stopped himself and sat down next to them. "I'm sorry we let it get this bad" He wrapped his arms around him and hugged him tight. Amelio felt safe and loved for the first time in awhile and it hurt when he realized his friends weren't here to share the experience with him.
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Drama!!
Also gonna pass out uwu
