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【𝐒𝐈𝐗𝐓𝐘 𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓】
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THERE WAS A WEIRD KIND OF TENSION that followed the abrupt departure of Himari after that fateful meeting with Sora Kobayashi.
Himari, without speaking to anyone else beforehand, packed her bags immediately and left the Survey Corps headquarters, with all intentions of spending the next few months at the Training Corps camp in order to avoid her mother.
At first, no one followed after Himari. They had all been left speechless and somewhat blindsided by the sheer venom that had poisoned her words when she spoke to her mother. She had been resentful and downright cruel and her words were like a slap in the face to those who had never ended up on the receiving end of her direct anger.
Eren didn't quite realise just how much he had taken Himari's words to heart until he entered her empty bedroom later that evening. He took a seat on the end of her bed, bowing his head as he leaned forward, resting his arms on his knees.
Very faintly, he could hear the sounds of Jean, Sasha and Connie protesting loudly against Hange's decision to let Himari leave. All three of them were completely in opposition to letting Himari isolate herself at the Training Corps camp, where she knew that no one would dare question whatever it was that was playing on her mind.
Eren silently agreed with them. He didn't like the thought of letting her leave on her own, especially not when she was still riddled with an anger that she was clearly struggling to handle. He'd never seen her lose her temper the way that she had at her mother.
He knew he wasn't alone in wondering whether or not this concealed anger was something that she had been hiding behind the normally calm facade she put up in front of them. She was resentful towards the things that had happened to her as a child - something he could not blame her for. He had heard her admit over and over again that she knew she wasn't a good person - that she often struggled to come to terms with what she had done and that those memories haunted her like a shadow. They would never leave, no matter how hard she tried.
But, Eren wondered, he wasn't quite sure Himari had ever had the chance to process what had happened to her. Their lives had been nonstop catastrophe ever since they'd joined the Survey Corps, leaving them all with very little time to think back and reflect on the things that had happened to all of them. She said she understood what she had done, that she had come to terms with the things she needed to do to keep herself and her father alive, but Eren wasn't quite sure she really meant it.
Eren understood that better than anyone.
Himari was no longer the same woman she was before they gained their knowledge of the outside world - before she learned that her mother was still alive and the world was a wide, large, hateful place that had never really learned of true peace.
