Heavy Heart | Miraculous Ladybug

Tell Me You Do

School began on Monday and everyone was desperate for summer vacation. The distant relationship with Adrien and Marinette was a little tempting when they saw each other. In the morning when they crossed paths with each other usually he would grab her by the wrist and kiss her, while she just got annoyed. This time they did nothing. Mari really wanted basketball training to come fast, but she never really had a reason. They didn't talk at all either. When he went to go grab a towel from her he didn't make eye contact or even talk to her.

Dam, he's taking this too seriously.

At the end of basketball practice she decided to clarify a few things with him. "Hey Adrien can we talk?" She asked.

"Sure." He replied in a cool voice.

"You know that we can still talk. We don't have to avoid each other."

"I know. Are you already missing me?"

"No. Where did you get that idea from?"

"The point is that you tell me that we can still talk, but now I can barely even look at your face because I just want to kiss you. Are we going to be that couple who doesn't talk at all and the only time we talk is when one of us wants to end the relationship?"

"The reason why I did this was because I needed more of my time. You're always by my side."

"Is that a bad thing?"

"No. Sometimes I think you forget that I can take of myself. You don't need to baby me because I'll be fine."

"That's what you say."

"I will. I have been on my own many times and I have learned what it feels like. What it feels like to be lonely and yet I am still here. I am independent." He lifted her up off her feet unexpectedly. "WHAT, I AM BEING SERIOUS HERE!"

"Wrap your legs around my waist because I am about to drop you." She did as what she told. "Sorry I have been a little clingy, but I just cannot help wanting to spend more time with you. I love you so...I'll agree to give you more space. Though now can we end the distant relationship?"

"Fine. It was just two days I realized..."

"Thank God for that. Also, when you clarified with me today and a few nights ago. Be honest with me sempai...are you getting a little bit jealous?"

"Why did you say that?"

"When I told you more about my girlfriends. You have been acting different."

"N-no..." She looked down. "You're just imagining things."

"Just tell me what's on you mind."

"I-I really can't and you have to put me down before someone catches us." He set her down, then he embraced her in a hug, pulling back kissing her on the lips.

"You own my body and you can do what you want. I love you so much to where...I. Honestly, all what I want is for you to say that I'm your boyfriend and that I am yours." He slung his bag over his shoulder and walked out of the locker room.

That evening Marinette had her shift at the convince store. All what she could think about was Adrien.

The way he left me with those words...it sounded like he wanted to let me. The wording that he used just sounded and felt different. I'm scared that he will let me go the same way he let go of the other girls. Am I just one of his girls that distract him from reality?

She was rather desperate to end her shift fast so she could see if he was waiting for her. She did and he wasn't there. Her heart sank and her mind started to rush all over the place. Slowly she trudged home in wonder and worry. She checked her phone and there were no notifications from Adrien. Maybe she probably screwed up. She knew that she couldn't look at her phone twenty-four seven so she put her phone away and wanted to take a shower when she got home. Only four more weeks until school ended. When she got out of the shower she checked her phone seeing no notifications.

"Dam it." She sighed, throwing herself on the couch.

If I love him so much then why can't I announce proudly that I am his girlfriend? Mom isn't the problem...I have to admit she's an excuse HALF of the time. Though because of our families and how they despise each other, it might strike a weird image on each of their businesses because of our relationship. Most of it is because I am a coward because of fame. I'm just scared to say that I am his girlfriend is because I'm afraid that I'm not good enough for him. After all his previous girlfriends it made me feel that I am not enough for him. Why am I swerving from everything? I am such a coward. She picked up her phone going to contacts. The time was nine, forty-six. Yet no matter how hard I try to not think about you, you still circle back in my mind. Just why do it all again? I could hit you up and you could come over, but what good would that do?

Two weeks went by and this time Marinette was growing a little bit anxious. Around that time Mei showed up at her apartment with Nana with a basketful of drinks. Five minutes later Mari already had five shots. "Relax on that." Nana sighed.

"Yeah because some stuff will happen. Not like it has happened before, but yeah. What's on your mind?" Mei asked.

Mari finished her drink, slamming the cup on the table. "I have screwed up my friendly relationship with Adrien."

"What? Did you hav feelings for him?" Nana asked.

"No." She was trying her best not to let anything slip out about the two of them.

"Well, what happened?" Mei piped in.

"Well...I asked him to give me more room and he's fine with it. Though the things he said after it made it sound like he was trying to end our friendship."

"What? Did you do something wrong?"

"I don't know. Just that we haven't talked in two weeks and that I'm growing anxious for the future."

"When you get anxious about the future, it's better not to think about it. The more you think about it, the more anxious you get," Nana spoke while starting to start on a bottle of beer, "present is present. Future is future. Just focus on what you can do now so you won't have to experience what you might you think is what is going to happen."

"Wonderful words of wisdom." Mari was starting to start on a beer because she was afraid that she was going to go drunk on the sixth shot of whiskey.

"Not done yet. If you and Adrien had a classic example of what I like to call 'misdirected rage'. Though I believe the technical term is being an ass."

"Language." Mei huffed.

"I meant it as in donkey. Jeez, people these days." She swilled down a shot of brandy.

"Is that brandy?"

"Yep."

"I told you not to bring it."

"Well too bad."

"Okay now listen to me Mari." Mei started. "If it's possible for one person to be hurt by another, then it's possible for that person to be healed by another."

Mari sat there in thought trying to sum up what her friends told her. "Yeah, now that you think about it more. Ugh, I'm sobering up." She took a long swill of the beer before she set it down. "Mei, why aren't you having anything?"

"At Wang's party that one night when you left. I just had a drink of I think...I forgot, but I got high that night."

"Just one drink?"

"Yep. Just one drink."

"Just drink a beer instead." She handed her a bottle.

"No, no I can't and tomorrow is Thursday."

"There is no school on Friday, so just crack one open."

"Fine." She gave in taking the bottle starting to drink it. "Not that bad."

"Got her Mari." Nana laughed.

"I WILL NOT GET DRUNK."

"Thanks guys." Mari started.

"No problem." Nana and Mei said in sync.

"Did you guys have that planned?"

"Maybe." Shrugged Nana.