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-SABINE'S MOTHER POV AS A YOUNG CHILD-

When I was eight, I was sold off by my mother to a rich Chinese family who had a son. We were not that rich. Grandma and grandpa wouldn't let us get any money or live with them. We were struggling badly and she sent me away for a husband who will help benefit us. Back then, having a son is like winning a lottery ticket. I stayed with my future husband's family and they treated me crappy. My husband was a jerk first of all and he was too young. When I turned eighteen he was only sixteen which kind of drove me insane. His mother wanted a child, but we never had sex or slept with each other. One day she talked to me about it.

I was sitting on a bench, drinking tea peacefully. My mother in-law came up to me and struck me in the face, shoving me off the bench. The cup shattered when I hit the ground. "HOW COULD YOU?! WHY ARE YOU NOT GIVING ME GRANDCHILDREN?!"

I was speechless. I just lied there looking down in my lap. "ANSWER ME!"

"I...I—we haven't slept together..."

"BE A BETTER WIFE AND GET IN BED WITH HIM!" Reason being why we didn't sleep together was because he kicked me out of the bed making me sleep on the floor. "DO YOU HERE ME?!"

I nodded my head quickly and she walked away. At that moment I realized that I had to leave, but I couldn't. I ended up staying with them and became a Cheng. My husband and I finally fancied each other and it was a girl. It was a disappointment to my in-laws. Later I had a son and my husband instantly took the baby boy everywhere. I raised her by myself and my husband went off some nights. He was a playboy.

Later, when Sabine was five we moved from China to Singapore. I expected very much from her. Later she left Singapore after graduating high school and went to a college in Paris. Although, I wasn't around to see her graduate from high school. I only watched her from heaven.

-SABINE'S POV IN PARIS-

When I stepped on Parisian soil it felt different. I went to college and had my own place. Mother was always working and never talked to me much of her biological mother. She never spoke of her, but that she got sent away. She died when I was ten. I did my work and found love on the way.

James Lung was his name and we met in sophomore year of college. We both bonded over time before we kissed in his car. We both saw the good and bad in each other, but still embraced it. We somehow get married in junior year on accident and I don't know how that happened. His parents never knew though. At the end of senior year I decided to end it.

"Hey, I am glad that you came." I said as he sat besides me on the sofa.

"Yeah. So what is it?" He asked.

"I have been feeling very conflicted lately ever since the divorce. I'm not ready to settle down just yet. I am twenty-three and I'm not ready to...you know." She paused for a minute. "So what I am trying to say is that I think we should break up."

That was it. I ended it all. Luckily he took it well and shook my hand before leaving my apartment. I was a free woman. I kept working at the maid café, until...

"Hello, I er...can I have a coffee?" The man was young and looked only two years older than me. He was cute, but not Chinese. He was not Korean or Japanese either. The man was French.

My heart stopped and something sparked inside of me. "Uh...s-sure! Anything else?"

"Maybe."

So, he basically asked for my number which ended up me falling for him. His name was Tom Dupain and we got married five months later. His parents were bakers and he was pretty good at baking too. I used all my money given to me by my mother for a start off into the world and all the money I made to put it into a bakery. Now, that I have grown I realized I was a stupid idiot.

If you're wondering why I broke up with James Lung it wasn't because I didn't feel it anymore. It was because his family wanted him to get married off to another woman and they even told me so in person. If I didn't let him get married to the other woman, he will lose everything. So, I chickened out. One thing I learned was that our minds are so hate losing something that is so valuable to us that we abandon all rational thoughts and make some very poor decisions. So now I know. I wasn't playing to win, I was playing not to lose. Although, I reminded myself that the one part of myself will always love him, but not enough to either date or marry him.

Maybe one day I would be able to ask my ex-husband why he went mad without being a chicken.

-END OF SABINE'S POV-

Sabine entered the visitation room of a prison. She sat down on the opposite side of the table with a clear window sat between her and her ex.

"Hello Tom." She looked at him straight in the eye.

"Charmed, very charmed Sabine." He chuckled.

"Glad to see you are having fun."

"Well baby, I have spent a long time here with no money."

"Stop. I'm not giving you money and I am not yours."

"Fine. Why did you come here? This is the first time you visited."

"I came to here to ask you why did you want to kill my daughter?"

"Correction, our."

"She's not yours. You disgust me. How could I let you posse my name in your crappy name?"

"Well, you let me as I recall."

"Whatever. Just why did you want to kill her?"

"You finally decided to ask me that?"

"ANSWER ME!"

"God Sabine. Have some respect."

"JUST TELL ME WHY!"

"Fine do you want to know why?! Whenever I looked at her I saw you! I saw your stupid Chinese ancestry heritage take over the daughter I possessed! It sickened me!"

"You had some heritage too you know!"

"NO I DIDN'T! EVERYONE IDOLIZED HER! EVERYONE LOVED HER BECAUSE OF HER LOOKS OF THE CHENGS AND THE CRAP MONEY THE CHENGS HAD! NO MATTER HOW MUCH MONEY I MAKE I WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH! YOUR FAMILY NEVER THOUGHT OF ME AS A ENOUGH! ONLY AS A BAKER! NOTHING I DO MATTERS, NOT EVEN ALMOST KILLING YOUR DAUGHTER!" He screamed to where he started to cry. He slammed his fist on the table. "YOU MAKE ME SO SICK! YOU MONSTER! IT'S NOT ALL MY FAULT THE MARRIAGE DIDN'T WORK OUT!"

He threw the phone at the clear window. She looked at him unamused by his behavior. "You're right. It's not all your fault why the marriage didn't work out. I shouldn't have hidden things from you, going to see my siblings who I met up with once in a while in Asia trying to make you feel more than a man. But let's make one thing clear. The problem with our marriage wasn't my family's money or reputation. It was because you were a coward. You gave up on us. But I realized that it wasn't my job to make you feel like a man. I cannot make you into someone you're not." She stood up, slinging her bag over her shoulder. "Well, I'll go try to make peace with my daughter when I have the chance too. Goodbye Tom."

"I HATE YOU! GO TO HELL!" He screamed clawing at the window between them as she walked out of the room while two policemen held him back.

When Sabine stepped out in the world she let out a big sigh and walked away like a woman wandering between the two winds forever.