I'll love you forever [Levi Ackerman x male oc]

Chapter 22

We arrived in one of the many unused rooms of the castle that were not fit to be bedrooms and saw Petra, presumably looking for me.

She turned around and sighed a sigh of relief, "ash!" She shouted, "we thought you'd been kidnapped again."

Silence once again settled.

"You dyed your hair?" She asked

I nodded as I closed the door. "I think it's time I tell you how I got this scar.." I mumbled walking over to a chair and sitting down.

Levi sat on a chair beside me and Petra opposite me, both of them looked at me without saying a word so I took my mask off and began,

"When I was little, I didn't have a great relationship with my parents. My mum I never knew and my dad.. wasn't the best. He's the reason for this scar. He used to hit me frequently, call me weak, useless exedra and one day he pulled a knife on me and sliced clean through my cheek leaving this scar." I said as I stared down at the floor, "when it began healing he told me it was ugly and that I should hide it, I listened to him. He's also the main reason I joined the scouts, to prove to him that I'm not weak. And my hair, I dyed it to get rid of any remanence of that weak child I once was, I'm not him anymore and I never will be."

When I finished I felt tears welling up in my eyes from reliving and remembering the past trauma.

(A/N: the next part is a vent from me irl but fitted to his character instead)

More and more instances of my father harming me came to my mind, instances I had pushed deep into my subconscious when I was young. Instances my past self had pushed away so I'd never have to remember them.

Tears began to flow from my eyes at a steady rate, I wiped them away with my sleeve and sniffled. I put my hand on my leg gripping the fabric of my leggings tightly.

I felt Levi's hand on top of mine trying his best to comfort me. I began sobbing quietly avoiding eye contact from the two individuals in the room with me.

"Ash.." Petra started though stopped when she was unsure on what to say next.

Levi pulled me closer to him and hugged me tightly, I rested my head on his shoulder as he rubbed circles on my back. He leaned down to my ear and began whispering to me, barley audible

"Shh, he's not going to hurt you ever again. He was so wrong about you, you're not weak and never were, he was just a shit dad."

He continued whispering until I calmed down enough to let go. I sat up awkwardly and looked at Petra.

"Sorry..." I mumbled

"No no don't apologize." She said, "I'm sorry that happened to you, your scar isn't ugly at all."

I sighed and shook my head, "you're just saying that to make me feel better." I said putting my mask back on

"No I'm not."

"You are, it's literally an ugly ass mark across my cheek, it's anything anyone looks at if I don't have my mask on."

"Because it's unique!"

"That's a special way of calling me ugly." I said sarcastically at which Levi hit me over the back of the head for.

"Ash, why don't you try being around people without your mask on? First try not wearing it around the castle, then in public. It might help you." Said Levi.

"Help me?" I asked turning to him, "how would that help me?!"

"It will show you that nobody gives two shits if you have a scar, plenty of people in the scouts have scars."

I thought about it for a moment before nodding, it was around lunch time so we all got up and left the room.

As we neared the mess hall, I gripped the mask tighter and tighter in my hand, fighting the urge to put it on before going in.

As I stepped into the hall, I felt as if everyone was staring at me, my cheek specifically. I was about to put my mask back on when Levi snatched it out of my hand and put it in his pocket.

I was a bit agitated but went and sat down at the table with the rest of the squad. I kept my eyes on the table not daring to look up.

I felt stares burning into me, I looked up and around the room, but nobody was looking my way. Was it my imagination?

I did actually notice one person staring at me, Oluo. He was right next to me so I turned and gave him a weird look.

"So that's what was under the mask." He said

I nodded,

He leaned closer and began poking the side of my face. Levi reached over and slapped Oluos hand away, Oluo then immediately leaned back and retracted his hand.

I could tell Levi was pissed that he started poking me so I put my hand on his thigh to try and calm him down and show that I was fine after he did that. It seemed to calm him in some kind of way so I kept my hand there as we ate.

I slowly began inching my hand further and further up, before something was shouted that made me remove my hand and choke on my food.

"You're sleeping with the captain?!" Oluo shouted standing up from his seat.

Both me and Levi stared at him wide-eyed unsure on what to say.

"Huh-?" I said

"I saw what you were doing!" He shouted

My face turned red as I stood up,
"oh piss off! I didn't do anything!" I shouted flustered.

"Yes you did I saw you!"

"I didn't do shit!" I said shoving him

"I fucking saw you!" He said shoving me back.

I swear I was about to punch him before Levi dragged me back down into my seat.

"We aren't sleeping together." He said calmly before leaning closer to me and whispering, "yet." In my ear only loud enough for me to hear.

My face began burning red before glaring at Levi, then at Oluo.

"See." I spat at him

I then turned back to what I was doing and continued eating. "Note to self." I thought to myself, "don't do shit like that at the table."