Dawn | Bucky Barnes ✔️

7. Trust?

W I D O W S E V E N T E E N

"Came back to tell me your little life story again, huh?" I beamed with my hand underneath my head turning my head to the side as I lay down on the white steel bed. "Have you stop acting like a coward, Natasha?" I smirked, raising a brow.

Natasha simply just stands there void with emotion on her face with her arms folded across her chest. I take in her outfit my eyes trailing down her entire, navy low waisted jeans with a plain grey chested t shirt and brown boots.

"I feel bad for leaving you in the red room, all those years ago. I did what I did out of fear and I left you and Yelena for my own selfish reasons." Natasha spoke breaking the silence, her eyes flickering with emotion as I hum.

"So your apologising?"

"Yes. I'm sorry"

"No sorry needed, I honestly don't care why you left. I don't know you, so I don't need to get a sorry from you. I just want to know was it worth it?" I questioned sitting up from my spot crossing my legs from underneath each other.

"Was what worth it?"

"Getting out? How did you survive?" I frowned, tilting my head leaning back against the glass window.

"It took awhile to get back into the ins and outs of the new corrupted world but I found Tony years ago working with shields undercover taking him under our clutches. From there I found a family, the Avengers they saved me... and hopefully you" She suggests looking at me hopeful.

"What do you mean hopefully for me?"

"Don't you want to get out of that life for good. Be good. You can join us, help us. Protect this city from corrupted criminals and villains. I can help you if you only let me, Zah- seventeen" Natasha exclaimed stepping forward with a small smile.

"You can decide if you want to stay here with us...me or you can go but please don't go back to the Redroom, see things for yourself and then you'll understand what it truly feels what it means to be actually human not a soldier"

"How do I know your not just playing mind control on me? How do I know I can trust you?"

"You can't" she replied. "But it wouldn't hurt to try. You trusted me once, why not start over?" She smiled nervously, raising a brow.

I thought over her question in my head, trying to bypass all of the things they had done to me for her escaping. Even though what I had went through I still want to remember. What if this is my chance of remembering who I once was? Ever since my amnesia I felt like a piece of me was missing, what if Natasha is that missing piece?

A piece to end my amnesia, a piece of the puzzle of this confusing head of mine. I want to remember, I do. But remembering all the stuff they had done to me the last thirteen years or even more before the amnesia, I can't bypass that.

But the look on Natasha's face now. It looks genuine to me, like she really wants me to start over and want me to remember who I am.

I'm just scared that if I forgive and start over right here right now, that she might be playing me but my heart is telling me to trust her. And to learn why she had escape was actually for a serious cause. There's always more to the story and I have to trust her on that to tell me one day.

I'll be out of the Redroom if I stay here. Yes I may still get nightmares but not the torture anymore. I'll be free - well physically but not mentally or emotionally but one day.