Dawn | Bucky Barnes ✔️

11. Lovers

B U C KY   B A R N E S

A pant escapes me, my chest rising up and down heavily. Sweat runs down my forehead, pushing myself harder to continue on with this run. I don't look where I am running, I just run like I have nothing on my shoulders when all honesty I feel like breaking down. I grind my teeth together, pumping my legs faster as I go around the bend bypassing a tanned skinned woman walking her dog.

My eyes deceive me and I stop in my tracks as if it was Zahra walking her imagery dog but I shake away those thoughts and begin running again. I let out a soft puff of breath, as I allow the cold sunny air cause shivers to dance across my skin. This morning I got the motivation, okay rephrase that Natasha motivated me to get out of bed.

Okay I'll rephrase that again, she pushed me out of bed by lifting the mattress from underneath. Let's just say it didn't end up with her with a bruise on her cheek but mine. I flinch when the wind nicked at my forming bruise, a distaste look flickering on my face before it's gone.

My tight black sleeved shirt with Steve's basketball shorts hang to my thighs tightly as I ran faster, causing it to stretch almost looking like it will break apart. My arms pump high as I continue onwards for another twenty minutes before coming to a stop near Dawn's favourite spot surrounding the Central Park.

I stop near the bench beside the willow tree, the leaves falling softly in the air as if in a slow motion time loop before it falls graciously to the ground. I drop myself down on the beach, placing myself down as I lean back, spreading my legs as I take a deep breath in.

Now that I am here, I finally let the surrounding area take in. I now know why Dawn likes this place, it looks so peaceful with the lake in front of me, ducks and swans swimming with their packs. A smile slips past my lips at the calming scenery, wishing that Dawn was here with me. Pretending that everything was normal just like it was in Wakanda for couple months.

They were the best months of my life and I almost wish we were back there again. But when Dawn is found I will take her to our sanctuary. Our peace. Our freedom. We currently don't have any information on where Seventeen is, it is like the wiped her off the face of the earth. We did last locate her two miles out of Berlin before it went radio silent and so we all moved our research back to New York.

Tony and I are having are differences, but he is not taking any anger out on me nor Cap's team. Are sole purpose right now is to save our family member, so with that Tony and I have been working along side each other and some bickering every now and then but it will take time until he can fully trust me. And I thank him for giving me a chance in my real state.

Steve however has not taken focus on taking time to himself, his head as been down into looking at security checks with Bruce to see if there's any coordinates on Dawn's whereabouts. I should be doing that, I should be saving my girl but I just don't know what's wrong with me. Don't get me wrong I want to find her but every time I close my eyes, I imagine her beaten up body in Hydra and god knows what they could be doing to her.

I feel so selfish that she would've been searching for me non stop but if I research anymore that I've been doing privately in my room for days since she's left is draining me. To be caged up in that room with nothing but my thoughts and my laptop, it was too much.

So that is how I got on my gym gear and went for a run. I didn't have a destination in mind, I just ran freely with so much pressure on my shoulders loosing with each step. Dawn is strong I know she'll be fine but it's just that thought in the back of my mind that something is terribly wrong.