Dawn | Bucky Barnes ✔️

32. Acceptance

Z A H R A J E N K I N S

I couldn't stop shaking, my eyes staring at the the ground deep in thought. Zayn beside me with his hand on my arm to comfort me, I lean into his comforting touch as I process the news that Bucky truly did shoot me. He could've killed my brother. I feel so sad, but overall just betrayed. Betrayed that everything I tried to deny was actually true. A part of me deep down wanted it to be false, hoping that video was fake.

But I'm also betrayed that Bucky knew who I and who my family were all along and didn't tell me. But on the other hand, I'm thankful, that my brother is still alive. But how?

I look up towards my brother who has been silent to allow me to process his reply. I breathed out through my nose, balling my hands into a fist as we lean against his head stone. "So it's true, it really was the Winter soldier?" I questioned with a small big of hope in my eyes to tell me it's a lie.

"Yes." He says with something in his eyes. My face instantly falls from any sort of hope, I still can't process that Bucky would. But I'm trying to get into my head that he was manipulative but it's hard to think that when I saw the video and my brother admits it. "But he saved me." Zayn mentions quickly when he saw my expression.

My head snaps up to him, "what?"

He takes a deep breath out before telling me what happened that night. "When they found out I survived, I was comatose for awhile but when I woke up some days later the Winter Soldier was there. There was this sadden expression on his face. He apologised to me, I was scared but a part of me for some reason trusted him. Like he wasn't himself so I let him help me. He took me away and brought me far away from there, helped me for awhile before he had to go back."

"But he still shot you, Zayn. I fell in love with a man who could've killed you if the bullet didn't miss you." I pointed out with a glare settling on my face.

"Don't blame Bucky for his past mistakes, he wasn't himself, you know him now and that's enough, right?" Zayn tried to reason with me.

"I don't know. I need more time to process all this."

"Okay but so you know, I've been watching you. I've seen the way he looks at you, he loves you bubba. Don't let this break what you both built up. I'm okay, I'm here, and I'm not leaving you."

"I missed you, zayn." I cried, hugging him tightly from the side.

"Me too, bubs." He whispered kissing my forehead.

Something seemed to click inside of me from his comment, I pulled away from him looking up with confused eyes. "What do you mean, you've been watching me?" I questioned.

He gives me a sheepish smile, scratching the back of his head. "I was in Lagos on a business trip where we were both coincidentally there at the same time." He exclaimed.

My eyes widen in thought of thinking I was imagining seeing him, "W-wait that was you then?" I whispered under my breath as he nods his head.

I whacked him in the shoulder, as he lets out a low 'ow'. He looks up at me with surprised eyes as if to say 'what the hell did I do?'

"Don't even give me that look, Zayn." I growled out with a shrug. He sighs under his breath, faltering slightly. "Why didn't you come up to me?"

"I don't know, I just assumed you got your life in order when your apart of the avengers and thought I shouldn't open a possible wound you closed from what happened to us."

"We'll that's fucking stupid." I retorted with a glare, crossing my arms. "What a stupid assumption you made up, your my brother Zayn. Of course I would be shocked and in denial but your my brother, I would have looked for you if I had my memories back then." I stated with my lip lift up in a snarl.