Sometimes I feel like I'm in a wave pool and my feet are chained to the bottom. most of the time my head is above the water and I am perfectly fine. then a wave comes in and knocks me under and I feel like I'm drowning. Then the wave passes and I'm fine once again.
It never stops moving.
currently, I am above the water hoping the next wave won't come. Gaslighting myself into ignoring the previous waves. If I try to undo the chains the waves will come and sweep over my head and I'll drown again. But the only way to ride the waves is to get unchained from the bottom of the pool.
but to unchain me while the weather is good will bring the waves and I won't be able to breathe.
but I'll be free.
they say it gets worse before it gets better, but what if it doesn't get better?
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RandomSo this is my journal. My way of reaching out for help without feeling like a burden. Don't take this personally a lot of this was written at my angriest or when I was in the most amount of pain from the situation. If you are just starting reading...
