he doesn't remember.
and what he does remember he got fixed. Mom told him he was worth it.
"I spent 30 minutes in her arms crying and she told me I was worth it."
I don't understand. I remember everything. I remember all the hurt, the pain, I never got that resolved. I'm still stuck here.
I can't talk to them because I don't trust them. Why can't I be fixed?
she told him he was worth it.
I don't understand why I'm not.
am I so much like her that she shuns me. Because all I am is just a reflection of what she hates about herself? did they just want a boy? is it because I'm older? I don't know.
and I know I'm worth it to you (God)
But that doesn't erase all the pain I'm in.
Don't get me wrong. I'm happy he remembers very ittle. I'm happy he's healed. But why am I not?
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RandomSo this is my journal. My way of reaching out for help without feeling like a burden. Don't take this personally a lot of this was written at my angriest or when I was in the most amount of pain from the situation. If you are just starting reading...
