100 Days Before I Die

D-75ㅡ D-80

Five Days in New Zealand

Now I’m with my family at the beach. I smiled weakly. I survived, but I'm not happy anymore.

We stayed overnight here.

Ayaw kong balikan muna ang nalaman ko sa nakaraang apat na araw, dahil hindi ko rin maiintindihan kung bakit kailangan pa n’yang gawin iyon.

I noticed Grandpa and Grandma laughing as they grilled hotdogs. I admired their love for each other because, even at their age, they kept their promise to love until grey, old and death. This stage of love is rarely reached by couples.

I’m in tears! Why can’t I be with him for the rest of my life? like Grandpa and Grandma? Why don’t we have the right to be happy together?

I left him there...... I left him even though he begged me to stay…

Flashback [August 16 – Day 75] Coffee Date

Midnight, 12:30 A.M.

I saw him walking toward me, holding two cups of coffee with that smile of his. He’s always handsome.. now I’m free to admit how much I admire him, but I still don’t have the courage to say it out loud.

We were at the abandoned park, and yes, I asked him to come with me.

“Baby.” He smiled. He’d been so sweet all night, and I didn’t even know why. I wasn’t used to it... I was used to loving him in his mystery. My lips almost tore from smiling. Why did he suddenly become like this? I wasn’t afraid anymore. The darkness in his eyes was gone, and the coldness I had known was replaced with warmth.

He hugged me from behind and pointed at a shooting star passing through the sky. What’s happening in the heavens tonight?

“There’s a meteor shower. I want to watch it with you.” he said suddenly. Perfect.

“If I see twenty-three of them, I’ll make a wish. Because I know you’ll grant it right away.” he said seriously. His words made me nervous. What if I couldn’t grant it? I could try, but I also had my limits.

“D-Dark Harris…” I just smiled and took a sip of my coffee to fight off the sleepiness. He kept laughing at me whenever something passed by, pointing things out for me to see.

“Baby! Twelve!” he yelled cheerfully. My heart melted. I didn’t want this moment to end. Can’t we stay like this forever?

The galaxy was stunning... countless stars, a crescent moon, and a meteor shower. Being with him in this moment made me feel alive. Hearing his laugh, being by his side... it made me forget the hardships. It was just us.

“Twenty-three!” he shouted again, then turned to me and kissed me softly on the lips. His eyes were sincere.

“Can I wish now?” he asked. Damn, my eyes burned with tears. I didn’t want to cry, not now... but we were leaving in just four hours... I wanted to pour out my emotions, but not in front of him.

I turned away quickly so he wouldn’t see. “Go ahead and make a wish.” I said weakly. If our eyes met, I’d break down. Sobrang sakit Dark Harris.

“From today until tomorrow, until the next day and all the days after, I want you by my side…” he said, almost begging. Could I fulfill his wish, knowing we wouldn’t be together for long?