July 09 D- 37 Read a newspaper alone
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Even though I had failed in the past few days, I will continue fighting. if I stop now I will fail too. I felt frustrated but that's not a reason to give up. Life is not as boring as others think, there are many things that can be done to get rid of boredom.
Natutulog parin si Dark Harris sa tabi ko, ang amo ng mukha n'ya. Marahan kong hinaplos ang kaniyang mukha. He looks tired, ano ba ang ginawa n'ya habang natutulog ako? I'm so worried about him, I don't have an idea of what he does when I was in unconscious.
I smiled. To look at him, to touch him, to feel his presence is too much for me.
"D-Dark Harris, I will do my best to protect you" I smiled. "I promise." I added. If there's something bad will happen soon, I wouldn't ever leave him.
I hold his hands tightly and bring it into my lips. I love him so much. Bumangon na ako at nag tungo sa kitchen, kahit nahihirapan na akong gumalaw ay pinagluto ko s'ya, I cooked chicken curry. Wala talaga akong alam sa pagluluto, but because of him I can cook now.
"Britney" I heard his husky voice. Dahan dahan akong humarap sa kaniya. Nakatingin lang s'ya sakin ng malamig. Kinabahan din agad ako dahil sa madilim n'yang titig.
"I-I am sorry. Gusto lang kitang ipagluto" I said softly. He shook his head and heaved a deep sighed. Bakit ba s'ya nagagalit? Mali ba na iwanan ko s'yang mag isa roon sa kwarto n'ya?
Tumakbo s'ya palapit sakin at niyakap n'ya ako ng mahigpit. Ano ba ang iniisip n'ya? Humarap s'ya sakin at tinitigan ako sa mata.
"W-Why did you leave my side? Fvck Britney I was scared. I thought you left me. Don't do that again."He said coldly. Namuo agad ang luha sa mga mata ko, Hindi ko alam na ganito ang maramdaman n'ya. So dapat pala ay hinintay ko lang s'yang magising? I shook my head at him. I just want to protect him, I want him to live long, but I didn't promise to stay by his side.
"D-Dark Harris, P-Please don't be like that. I'm struggling too" basag na sabi ko. Nahihirapan akong sundin ang kagustuhan n'yang manatili lang ako sa tabi n'ya dahil kahit gustuhin ko man ay hindi talaga pwede.
"Fvck!" Namumuo ang luha sa mata n'ya. Hindi ko na nakikita ang nakakatakot na Dark Harris, sa mukha n'ya ngayon ay para s'yang mahinang lalaki.
"Please huwag kang ganiyan! Huwag mong ipakita sakin na ganiyan ka! Dark Harris please.I'd rather see the fearsome Dark Harris not the weak one! Huwag mong ipakita sakin na hindi mo kaya kapag nawala ako!” Naiiyak na sigaw ko sa kaniya. Agad akong tumalikod sa kaniya.
"B-Britney!" Habol n'ya sakin. Mas lalo kong binilisan ang paglakad ko. Pero mas mabilis s'ya sakin, bigla n'yang hinawakan ang wrist ko dahilan para matigil ako. Humarap s'ya sakin, I can't look at him because I don't want him to see me cry.
"P-Please leave me alone." I said softly.
"Look at me first" he uttered. Nakipagtitigan ako sa kan'ya. Damn! His eyes! It's back to being scary, I can't see the weak man I was seen earlier. I smiled at him.
"I'll let you to be alone, but don't go afar away from me." He coldly said. I just nodded my head.
"S-Sa Library lang ako pupunta." Tugon ko bago s'ya tinalikuran. Hindi na s'ya sumunod sakin. Natatakot ako dahil sa mga ginagawa si Dark Harris, I want to protect him but how? I'm confused. He is my boyfriend, and I don't know how to be a good girlfriend for him.
Sa ngayon ay kailangan kong mapag isa, I have to do what's on my list. Nakarating na ako sa Library, I immediately locked the door. Nagtungo ako sa bookshelves, I sat on the floor so I could look at the newspapers placed underneath. I need to experience reading a newspaper, it's a good thing because there is a newspaper in it.
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