Tears Of London

Jo

JO

- I drop you there, in front of the bins ?
I slowly release the weight on the accelerator, to park on the lower side of the road. By our right, a huge building. This is where Jared is living. With his parents.
- Oh, you're not coming with me ? he asks me while I am looking at him, waiting for him to get out of my Twingo.
- No, thanks. I think I'll stay home tonight, I kindly refuse.
- My parents are out, we'll be alone, he instists, whereas I was just avoiding his gaze.
I know...that is precisely what I am worried about.
- I have class tomorrow, so I don't want to be too far from the city, you see ?
- God ! You're clearly the most boring person I ever dated.
His attack pinch me slightly. But, curiously, it didn't hurt like it could. I didn't even get mad.
I think... I am probably used to it. So I don't get mad. I am just exhausted. Tired of listening to him talking.
- I'm just kidding, he says after a sigh escaped from my mouth. I just don't really understand what scares you about sleeping with me.
I ignore him. I am perfectly allowed to refuse to sleep with someone. Even if it's my boyfriend...right ?
- Why don't you say nothing ?
- I don't know. You just said I was the most boring person you ever dated, maybe it's about this, I answer him coldly, with no emotion.
- You think I'm wrong ?
I want to throw one of my Converse right on his stupid face. So bad.
- Jared...just get out of my car. I'm fed up with you.
A deathly silence reign in the cabin. Finally, Jared loosen his seat bel, got out, and before slamming the door, throws me eye to eye :
- I don't even fucking know why I'm still fighting for this relationship.