Tears Of London

Just a fuckboy

JO

- When did you plan to tell me ?! Kelly reproaches me.
- Why are you angry ? You never liked Jared !
She seems really disappointed, as I didn't mention my breakup before.
- I don't like Erin neither.
- Do you like someone at least ?
- I like you, that's why I'm mad at you !
- You don't even know Erin ! Tell me what he did to you ?
- C'mon Jo ! There are some people for whom we don't need to know them to see who they are. You just can see it on them. That's Erin's case.
I just parked, but no one moves.
- Because you see something better in Malcolm ? I retort joking. They are the same, you can't deny it !
- I never said Erin was a bad person. I said he was not good for you.
I look at her, smiling. It is a fake smile, inside, I am upset.
- Oh. I understand. So you're jealous ?
- Jealous ? Of you ?
- No. Jealous of my happiness. Someone is finally giving a damn about me and it drives you mad. So you're trying to fuck it all up.
- You...have feelings for him ? Really ? Jo, don't be stupid. He's just a fuckboy. Trust me.
So, that's how people see him ?
The deep-me doesn't want to trust her.
- You're not fair, I declare before going out.

*

Kelly and I didn't take so much time to make up. She didn't change her mind about Erin and me. Though, she's not angry anymore.
- I'm leaving, I say after getting out of the bathroom.
- Huh ? Where are you going ?
I move back.
- I have class.
- On Saturday ?
- I always have class on Saturday.
- You're always working, or at school. I miss our old outings at Ritchie's.
She is talking about the best Italian restaurant of the city. Before I enter at my economics school, we used to have dinner at Ritchie's once a week.
- Me too, I admit.
- Have a fun day at school, she tells me in a joking tone.