Being an adult

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JO

Often, I check my watch. I'm afraid of the time.
Because I know this night won't last forever. I feel like a kid, whose afraid of hearing his parents saying it's time to go, while he was having such a good time. Tonight, nobody is here to tell me to go. I'm the only one who can decide for me. I'm my own parent. However, I'm not feeling happier. I feel like what I'm doing is wrong, that I should leave, that it is late, that I'm going to be tired tomorrow. I have so much choices to take. So much possibilities to renounce.
Yes, for some reason I miss being a kid. Adult life doesn't look so funny for the moment.
But there are some people, with who spending time sounds good. These people are hard to find. I don't know many. There was grandma', who always had something to teach me. And, when she was gone, there were no one anymore. 
A strange thing when I'm with Erin, is the flow of time. Time flies when he is around. Like when I was with grandma'. It is weird to have this feeling again, after all this time.
-  I'm going upstairs, to grab a glass, Erin explains me. You want something ?
-   A glass of coke. It'd be great.
-   I'll see if we have this, he says before opening the door.
I look around, until my eyes fall into a desk. Let's see what he has in this.
I know it's unpolished, but I want to learn more things about Erin. And, as he never speaks about himself, I'm going to meet him by myself.
The desk is messy. I see old plastic glasses, pencils, paper balls and one lipstick, that I look with judging eyes. I also find what seems to be a brand new computer, hidden under a bunch of drafts of paper. 
Then, I give a look in the first drawer I see. In it, I find a strange kind of blue bottle. I get it out when the door opens.
-  You okay ? Erin smiles, when he sees my face.
Then, his eyes fall on the blue bottle I'm holding.
-  You need a lubricant ?

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