MY RANDOM THOUGHTS, SHORT WRITINGS, POEMS

From Lovers, To Friends (Poem)

Longer days, I could not stand
The passing weeks, my time's out of hand
It's killing me, I've been so numb
I chose to stay, and never ran out..

Turning tables, as I wanted it to be
But it doesn't look as what should it seemed
Slowly, loneliness embraces my heart
Always breaking and tearing me apart..

I wonder how they've been? 
Are they happy everyday?
The bitterness I am feelin'
Tends to change me in every single way..

This isn't me, I say to myself
I am not a cold-hearted one, nor an insensitive human
Maybe it's only my pride, that hid me into the shelf
Because of a lost love, a tragic failure romance..

I woke up one day, and realized things
How can I be glad, when I never wanted to give peace? 
It struck my head, yes, I am becoming wrong
This darkness I am in, is a place I don't want me to belong..

Suddenly, a certain song brought me back to who I am
I really wanted this hatred to end
Only if that happens, I could find the calmness
To truly forgive, and forget the haunted memories.. 

If I allow myself to be part of your world
It will be easy to fix everything through actions and in words
And I'm taking the risk again and taking the chance
Maybe a little kindness could make our friendship somehow lasts..