bee duo (one shots book)

[sleep]<angst/fluff>

aka ranboo keeps on overthinking and has sad deprecating thoughts

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"Hey, Mr. President, I-"

Ranboo began, walking into the quiet office before seeing the goat was fast asleep on his desk. A small click left their throat at the sight, their eyes growing soft as they realized he must've passed out while doing paperwork. They let out a short hum before walking over to him and peering down at his face, see he was, in fact, dead asleep.

They sighed softly and stood straight up once more, carefully pulling the chair away from the desk while holding his head so he wouldn't fall. They then picked him up and carried him over to the small sofa in the office, laying him down and realizing there was no blanket for him to sleep under. They glanced at their suit coat before shrugging it off and laying it over him, tucking a throw pillow from the sofa under his head.

They smiled warm at the sight of the sleeping president and felt a weird fluttering in their stomach at the moment. God... They really did adore him, huh? They leaned over him and left a small kiss on his forehead, moving to walk away but realizing someone had their grip on them.

They looked down at him and saw the culprit was him, his eyes cracked the slightest bit. They heard him mumble a small "Wait" before he tugged them down to lay with him. "Wan' you to stay..." Tubbo sleepily, most likely not even aware of what he was doing. "I need to leave before -" Ranboo started, but Tubbo hushed him "Stayyy"

Ranboo glanced over his face before sighing softly. "Only for a little bit.." They got comfortable on the sofa, tucking their tail safely between the two as they hesitantly wrapped their arms around his waist. Tubbo tugged them closer, apparently falling back asleep, and Ranboo just lied awake.

Crap..

Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap. Crap.

They shouldn't be lying with the president like this. They really shouldn't. Someone was bound to walk in and scold the ender for taking advantage of him like this. They need to leave... Hell, who knows what Tubbo would say. He'll be upset with them for sleeping with him. He was clearly in a tired daze, thinking he was inviting someone else to lay with him. He most likely was thinking of Tommy lying with him. The two were best friends, after all.

They sucked in a shaky breath, feeling the small boy nuzzle into their neck and a small click left their throat. Why would he even ask them to lay with him? They weren't anybody special. They were just a coward who were scared of even looking at anyone in fear they would think they're looking at them the wrong way.

A shiver ran down their back, feeling Tubbo let out a warm breath against their neck, and they glanced down at him. What would he say if he saw them doing this to him..? How would he react if he ever found out that they caught feelings for him? Would he reject them? Would he laugh and shun them for even thinking they could have a chance..?

They narrowed their eyes before they heard him mumble a quiet "Boo" and prime... Prime. They were scared of what he was even dreaming of.

A small voice was telling them that maybe - just maybe - he wouldn't mind that they're sleeping beside him. That he likes them back and wants them by his side forever.. That he can see how amazingly beautiful they are...

But the voice was shot down almost immediately with the reminder of just how cowardly they were. That they couldn't ever be loved because who would love a freak like them? Someone who's a mixed up hybrid, one half they don't even know it could be.

Their tail started thrashing, and they worried that it would wake Tubbo, so they gripped it close to try and calm it. It thankfully worked, and they let a small breath.

Would they ever find love..? Would a half ender, half whatever the hell it is, ever manage to find love..? They doubted it. If they didn't even love themself, then who would find the courage to love them? Who would willingly put themself through that to be willing to wake up to.. them...

They glanced down to Tubbo and their ears folded back. He wouldn't. He most definitely wouldn't. They expected him to fall for someone as amazing as him, and he'll marry them, and they'll both possibly have beautiful children, and Ranboo would be alone for the rest of their life...

They let out a small sigh and went to readjust their legs before realizing Tubbo had tangled both their legs with his. His legs seemed to fit perfectly with theirs... He seemed to fit perfectly in their arms. His head would always fall in the perfect spot to rest in their neck without jabbing them with his horns. He... fit perfect with them...

But they wouldn't fit perfectly with him.

They were too lanky and their arms fell longer than they should've and their legs were two different lengths and their face was so asymmetrical and their horns were uneven and their hands were too big and -

"I love you" was what cut Ranboo's thoughts off. They looked down at him and saw he was still sleeping, but god.. It sounded so perfect coming from his mouth - even if it was in a dream. They wanted... him to say it to them. To look them in the face and tell them it - even if he meant it platonic. They wanted to hear it from his mouth...

Hearing him say it would make all that's bad in their head go away. It'll be enough to show a big "eff you" to whatever demons lurked in their thoughts.

"Mm.. love y'u boo.."

And a shiver ran down their spine, and butterflies fluttered all through their stomach, and warmth grew through their veins. And it was enough. It was enough for them.

They carefully pet his back with their hand the best they could, a soft purr coming from their throat as they did their best not to smother him with hugs. He didn't mean it as they wanted it to be, but it's okay. It's okay. They don't mind. They just... They love hearing it either way.

They nuzzled their face into the top of his head and decided maybe sleeping alongside him would be okay. They would be allowed to do so. Tubbo wouldn't mind... And everyone else knew better than to disturb the president's sleeping. They readjusted their grip around him, pulling themself as close as they could before letting themself give into the world of sleep.

Tubbo surely wouldn't mind...