Nathaniel
November 10th
I knew I wanted kids eventually but right now definitely wasn't the time I had in mind, it freaked me the fuck out.
I was terrified I wouldn't be good enough for this baby, our baby.
Terrified I'd turn out like my own father. I refused to be him.
I should have been there to protect her, to protect the both of them. That's my fucking job.
Instead I was dealing with fucking work.
"we were able to stabilise her but we won't know anything until she wakes up" The words went right through me, I knew what was about to be said next and I didn't want to hear it.
The doctor hesitated, "we weren't able to save the baby, i'm so sorry"
That fucker had killed my parents and now my baby.
He killed our baby.
I was done playing on his terms. I was done waiting for a chance to put a bullet through his fucking head.
I walked towards the back of the warehouse. Everyone parted ways as I passed by, Xander, Grey and Jax followed closely behind me.
"where is he?" I glare at the guy who'd called my wife a whore a few months back. Even seeing his face pissed me off but Grey had talked me into giving him and his friends a second chance.
"in there" He pointed
I swung open the door to see Isaac hanging there. Grey finally found the sick fuck.
He looked up at me, fear swallowing him up.
"nice to finally fucking see you" I seethed, "I thought we'd have a little talk"
"I warned her, I have nothing to say" he turned his face away
"oh yes you do Scott, yes you fucking do" I yank at the ropes holding him up.
He hissed in pain. He'd clearly already been thrown around by someone, I'm assuming Greyson. His arms looked dislocated as he hung by them.
I didn't care anymore.
Seeing him in pain actually brought around a sense of satisfaction.
It would never be enough but it was better than nothing.
"i'll ask the questions, you answer" I let him drop again.
"where the fuck is he?"
His head hung low in shame. He refused to look at me.
"how much is he fucking paying because I can promise you, it will never be enough" I laughed sharply
I grabbed his jaw and yanked it up, "I trusted you"
"I needed the money, it wasn't personal Nathaniel" his voice was quiet and almost desperate, "I have people to provide for, y'know"
"I do know" I sighed
"i'm sorry, I really am but I just can't tell you anything, I need the money he gives"
I sat down on the chair opposite him, "how much does he give you?"
"$5k for every bit of intel I give him"
"Fuck me" Jaxon swore from behind me. It was a lot of fucking money for intel.
With that amount of money given each time, Ricardo could know a shit ton by now.
"i'll make you a deal Isaac, i'll forget about this whole switching sides thing if you give me his location, everything can go back to normal and i'll up your wage by 20k a month, how does that sound?"
His eyes gleamed as he looked up at me, "really?"
"really!"
Naive fucker
"he said he was going to London, he wanted to finish her off... and before you ask, i'm not sure who her is" he basically spat the words out.
He was talking about Charlotte.
Like that poor women hadn't been through enough this past week.
"that's great" I smiled before getting up.
I walked over to Jax who seemed surprised by what i'd just done.
"kill him" I muttered just loud enough for Isaac to hear.
Jax nodded and walked towards him.
"wait no!" Isaac screamed, "you said it was all forgotten"
"it is" I shrugged as I lit a cigarette, i'd had far too many of these over the past week. It wasn't good.
"then why did you say that?"
"because I want him to kill you... a life for a life" I blinked, "thought you were smarter than that"
He looked at me confused, "what do you mean?"
"you were one of the shooters Scott, we have cameras dumbass, plus the deduction of your warning... we know you were there" I snapped
His face drained of any color it had left.
"nobody's dead, you're all here"
"you shot Evangeline you dumb fuck" Xander hissed from beside me.
"but she isn't dead" he replied, "I made sure it wasn't a fatal shot"
I was so taken back at his words. He'd literally fucking aimed for her. At least before, I could pretend it was an accident.
"oh you fucking bastard" Jax punched him, breaking his nose on the spot
"she may be alive but my baby isn't"
The room fell silent at my words.
"like I said, a life for a life"
I turned around and left the room, emotionally drained.
"Jaxon will finish him, dump him where ever the fuck you want when he's done" I say to the guy standing outside.
"yes sir" he nodded.
I could hear Greyson and Xander walking behind me.
"aren't you going to talk about this?" Xander grabbed my arm, bringing me to a hault
"there's nothing to say" I shrug,
Xander looked taken back, "Nate..."
"I don't need your sympathy, I need you to find that fucker... can you please do that for me Alex?" I pleaded with him
He sighed and backed up a little.
"i'm sorry Nate" Greyson gave me that all too famous look of pity.
"I don't need your sorries," I sigh, "I need you to find him, can you do that?"
"yeah of course" he backed up with Xander.
"okay then, thank you" I gave them a small nod then walked off.
I headed out to my car and sat there for a moment.
This was what living in hell must be like. I missed her like crazy.
Her collection of hair ties were placed all around my car. Everywhere I looked, I was reminded of her.
I pull the phone up to hear it ringing. I was praying i'd get an answer because if not, I was gonna have to go to fucking London myself at this point.
"Nathaniel?" the other end of the line picked up
"Harrison, thank fuck you answered, I know it's late for you" I sigh in relief
"nah it alright mate, what can I do for you? Is Eva alright?" His accent was different to Evie's, much more difficult for me to understand most of the time.
"she's the same, but it's about Lottie, are you close to her?"
"yeah, I can be there in 5" I could hear him already picking up keys.
"get her to a safe location, Im pretty sure he's on his way to her" I run my hand down my face.
Things did not have to fucking be like this all the damn time. Life isn't meant to be hard to live.
"right of course" he replied, "i'll text you and let you know when she's safe"
"okay thanks" I say before hanging up.
At least that was Charlotte safe, that was one thing.
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