Away

Forty

"Almost got it." Toya remarks as I catch my breath a bit, he has been helping me get my flames blue before the provisional exam, or at least white, while still maintaining some control. Right now I can get it to a cherry red which is around 900 C [1652 F]

"Almost isn't hitting the mark though." I huff, my right palm is a dark red from the heat. I can do better, I gotta do better!

"Relax Sis," Toya puts a hand on my shoulder "you've only just started cranking up the heat. You're doing great at producing the heat and keeping your temp stable, especially since I know you haven't done much training with your quirk."

I know that, but it's not enough. I'm a Todoroki, I should be at orange at least by now.

yOu DoN't DeSeRvE tO bE a ToDoRoKi.

Fucking shit. "Let's take five." Toya suggests, tossing me a bottle of water. I don't argue as I chug it down, he might smack me if I did. I plop down on the ground, only five then I have to get up.

Toya squats down beside me "Maybe take ten, don't want to over work ya."

"Five is enough." I state.

"If you were lifting weights maybe, but I don't need ya passing out like ya did in Kamino."

I exhaled a bit "I passed out when I knew I was safe, I walked to the car didn't I?"

"Running on adrenaline. Still weren't using your quirk during that." Toya drinks some water from a different bottle.

"I'll be fine, I know my limits."

"Limits that you try to go way past." Toya notes before giving a chuckle "Something we both got from our old man. Take ten Sis, Imma see if Shoto needs my guidance. If I'm not back when your break is done, work on making shapes with the fire you got so it's not as much of a pain in the ass to do it when it gets hotter."

"Okay."

Toya walks off, checking his phone, probably a text from Keigo.

I stare at my right palm that is an aggressive red color. Can I do it? It's been a couple days since we've started creating our Ultimate moves, I mean sure I can kinda copy Dad's and I got some ideas with my right. But I can barely use my quirk, hell I've barely used my left since I tried to kill myself outside of keeping cool with this heat both from my right and from summer in general. Every time I've tried in my room my chest tightens and I almost go into a panic attack.

bEcAuSe YoU'rE wEaK. tOo WeAk To Be A hErO.

Fucking fuck fuck shit. I close my eyes tight, don't start please, just breathe. I don't need to be having an attack when Toya comes back, nor need anyone to worry or think I'm weak.

"Something wrong Kid? " Aizawa asks, walking over to where I am sitting.

"No Sir, just taking a breather." I tell him, getting up. I need to get back to working on my flames, I don't have the leisure of taking a break.

"Alright, don't overwork yourself kid."

"Yes Sir." Why is everyone worrying about me? I know my limits, I can push past them and still be fine. They don't need to worry about me, there's more important things.

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"Man, I thought the camp was intense." the pikachu guy complains as we, the class, walk back to change out of our costumes. Except for Shinso, Toya and I, mine isn't going to be done until just before the exam and Toya has been helping Shoto and I improve our quirk skill so he's just in a tank-top and basketball shorts. My right hand is blistered now, my flames still only at a cherry red but I think I saw some orange. I'm probably being hopeful.

"Of course it's intense." Toya states "Lives are on the line. One wrong move," he makes a throat-cutting gesture.

Hitoshi wraps a couple fingers around two of mine as we walk next to each other, neither of us wants the class to know that we're dating, especially with my brothers.

"You three are lucky that you don't have to take it." Kirishima says.

"Lucky? Bitch I want to take it!" Toya remarks as Ingenium gets after Toya for cussing.

"I mean, we're going to take it just at a later date." Hitoshi shrugs "It'd be fucked up if they let someone with barely any training attempt it."

I still haven't told anyone that I'm going to be taking the provisional exam with the class, I mean even if I did the only ones that would believe me are my siblings and Hitoshi. I rather not go through that yet.

I hope I pass, I'm planning on seeing Mom whether or not I pass but I feel like I wouldn't be as much of a disappointment if I pass.

yOu'Ll AlWaYs Be A dIsApPoInTmEnT, nOtHiNg CaN cHaNgE tHaT.

I bite my cheek to the point that it starts bleeding as I walk into the locker room, I need to focus on making myself better. With Toya's guidance, I'm progressing quicker than I would've on my own when it comes to my fire.

Frankly he should be focusing on Shoto since he can use his ice a bit better and also gone through some of Dad's training so Toya already has an idea of where Shoto's stands, but me? No quirk training other than cooking and being my own A/C and heater along with some basic structures with my ice. Shoto has a better chance of passing in the long run.

"Todoroki-san?" I look over at the pink girl "Are you alright girl? You keep stopping mid-action."

Shit "I'm fine." I fake a smile "Just making a mental list of what I need to work on tomorrow." Why do I keep causing people to worry? They shouldn't have to worry.