i need to be new

June 14 2024

If I'm scared, so what?
I'll get over it.
Like when I went on a walk today and somehow managed not to get kidnapped by the Chinese criminals or attacked by street dogs.
Amazing.
I kept running.
Beat my record twice in two days.
If I can do all that, why be scared?
It'll pass.
Like a plank.
You dread it and then suddenly it's over and you're fine.

I would write another poem about a guy.
I'm good at fangirling.
Maybe I'll see someone attractive soon.
For know, I just remember when I used to.

I miss you.
I liked calling with you.
I know you're not okay.

I hope she knows she needs to run the other direction,
He's not safe.

He?
We don't talk about him.
King of mixed messages-
He could've said bye.
No.
He just left.
Bye.
No reply.
Well.
I knew it all along.
But really?

My dad is the best.
I'm the same or am I very different.
You seem nice.
If you're lonely you should text me and we can be lonely together.
We have real potential.
Potential for what.
Life is all I seem to know.
A small bit of all of it?

All my soccer references?
But y'all are so good.
I'm still waiting for you to get famous.
You said Japan was too bad then go be a star there.
You're sleeping at 2.12am right?
Must be-
But I don't skip legs, I just do legs.
Because I run even though I want to stop every time.
And you're my friend, I won't hate you.
I will try.
I can't be mean because my mind works against my body and it forces cheerfulness and kindness out of me.
Where from? I don't know. It's magic I guess.

Yokohama like a dream.
That pink rice dessert, what's it called?
I think of you.
You're cute.
What do you do?