i need to be new

April 7, 2025

I was headed to bed

Beauty rest

Even though I can sleep in in the morning

You can't

Imagine having school

But a song started playing

One that you like

I've been thinking about you

And how you affected me in ways I didn't even realise

I'm light

But you're lighter than me

Pale like some of the Germans are

But your hair is darker

You talk like you think you're cool

Sounds like things my dad would say

So Texas of you

You might be shallower than I thought though

Chasing the girls in your class

Doing pushups in the back of the chemistry classroom

And you think about things sometimes

I don't get you

You know how to talk so all the adults think you're splendid

But you actually recite things everyone else said that means nothing

Like a ministry kid does

But I never had a problem with you

A nice kid, maybe a little cringe

You were like fourteen back then though

So of course

Til I found you right after winter

Quarter of the century

And someone previously was joking

So that's what I was expecting

But you weren't

You were straightforward

Not how I thought you were

After seeing you every week for 3 years

Not who I pictured

You volunteered

Said it's my turn

Like how do I say no

And you stole it from me just that quick

Didn't even feel that wrong

I'd done it before

You said you had too

So what, what would it hurt, you said