i need to be new

October 6, 2024

Lime cropped sweater
Light pink short shorts
My hair is wavy to mid-back
My eyes are hazel-amber in the afternoon sun
I don't like Russian rap, you do
I only like bangers
If it's punk or if it's phonk
I'll see you tomorrow
If I find someone else sane
Unlikely
A mass of mess
A mass of people
Dark
Like each fibre of them
It unravels
If a single cell rejects Life
I'll be disappointed
People are dying in Lebanon
And I'm listening to Conan Gray in the early hours
Was I supposed to write 3,000 words?
Oops
I'll read for 7 hours instead
You didn't remind me
I'm seventeen
I shouldn't need reminders
I'm a child
Is it bad that I like clubbing? 
Is it all bad?
She's getting her third degree and she's nineteen
But she walked away from the faith
Ambition
Am I scared?
I'll regret that later, won't I?
I'll yell at him today
Til he runs away
But God stays
I'll just pray help me
Because only what He does will last right
I will regret
And I have pain too much already
I'm just seventeen
They don't believe me
They don't have to
My friends are scarred too
We were broken
Do heal us