September 3, 2024

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by absy_22k

by absy_22k

Read the time on the clock wrong, I should be glad
There's still some time left

I'd much rather have things worth crying over than not
It's good to feel
It's good to miss
It's nice when I know I will remember those moments, if I but watch them from a distance now

Country in my earphones, beautiful people
I smile with them sometimes
I wish it was perfect sometimes
But I really don't

Will this ever be a sad memory?
There are already things that irk me
We get old, but we're still children
And you're a memory I never made
One I might never want but always get

Dried fields with actual fences
Cows that look alive, but political signs

But I'll always remember you
Lost in virtuality
You live in a world that doesn't exist, one I used to live in
Where we're cool and we're sweet but we're toxic -- we know it
I'll keep you forever

A culture I got adopted into,
I know it too well now
It's like a beauty people like to pretend exists

But I might miss the carpet smell of Texas

Don't just come assassinate me because I don't want to have to deal with it all
Even if I've said that before

Because I had another home
Like one I had allegiance to and knew
Walked the streets and it was all I had
I knew it, but it's gone

I lost a lot, I cried a lot
But I'm seventeen and it almost seems normal now
Got this wonderful gift at age one,
and we all get it knowing we'll lose it someday
as much as we hope we won't

An ache in the heart
But it'll stay with us forever
All the puzzle pieces start to make something resembling a picture

Go and get yourself in trouble
As one does
It's kind of hard to know, but not that complicated
Even though I might be a lot of an outlaw
When I just disagree
Sad that everyone has to leave
You couldn't linger
But maybe I thought I had more time than I did

Glass, light, I get distracted by "real life"
Flesh so handsome do I forget I am?
Does it lose me? You decided we all were good
Am I safe? I think moment-to-moment
Actually peaceful classical for once
But I wanted male eyes again, like I used to have
Or the centre of attention even if it's poor
Is that what you wanted?
So, help
If I break the rules because I disagree
So, help
Break my heart and set me free
Heck with this knowledge talking