i need to be new

September 22, 2024

If I'm terrible, unwanted here
How am I supposed to have self-esteem anywhere?
It doesn't work
I can't talk
Traumatising event of the day
I can leave
I get the hint
I'm the example of the horror
You say the words so much that the kid copied it and it doesn't even matter anymore
Psychopathic degree
Help
Assume stuff
Im lonely but I don't want to be seen anymore

When they know, and it's true, so they can look like that
It's scary up close, you might get hurt
It's not a joke
Attractive from far away
It's very nice, but intimidating, please don't break me
When the fight clouds your brain
Or you see logic in something and it leaves me hurt
I don't want you to like me, I'm surprisingly content
Grew up racist but I think you cured it

Why are you so sweet to me
You're up til 3
You have a game
You always do
It's like you're sweet but you'll only be polite
I saw you reading an article in Japanese
I don't even wanna be with you
It's so probably fake, it's absorbing
But it's my teenage-ness wanting to feel
Think happy thoughts, I like America, right?
I'll miss the ideas
My racism left
And if it was because you stayed A team magically
I don't find satisfaction in food like I used to
I don't wanna lose sports and people, but they're the only things still with me now
But I do?
Frustrating when who we are doesn't show on the outside
It's the outside that matters

History nerd
Pictures
I can't escape it, I don't live in a fairytale land
I hope it's not me, but God knows
God knows the number of martyrs

But girl who I see
Don't advertise your body
I've been there too
I know how it is
I swear I know how it is
But you don't want to
But I know -- you want to

I just realised
The person I knew is gone now
Even though the same person is next to me
He got left behind