i need to be new

June 12 2024 Pt. II

Feeding pride
Definitely a problem
I know they do that too
But I'll just move to Japan
Leave the rest to you
I'm not upset
I'm happy for you
Just if only I had it too
But what I have is him
And he's apparently a fool
(So am I)
But who am I fooling
Dreaming, dreaming
But I'm awake
I'll make this short, read the old ones before you escape
But I'll text you in the middle of break
Like everyone else
Hey, you haven't died yet?
Okay, here's an apple for health
Vibes
And it doesn't mean anything
None of it means anything
You knew it all along
But you played with it
Now it doesn't even matter if it's cute or it's tempting
Because though it is your own
It's not shared
It's separate and you weren't made for it
I'm cold in a crevasse-
Not like a nightmare
But that I can't get right and now I'm cold tonight
But it's too hot
Don't take me back
Do, forget I said that
Forget everything
Move on

But if I move on and if I lose an essence essential -
No
I must keep it strongly
My hope, my faith
Don't let it fade or lighten the tension
Though it's easy, default
God is my God
I will ever seek Him