i need to be new

August 24, 2024

Never about you
Because I've figured you were okay
You could change, you probably did
Because I saw you strive to hear God's voice
Like a couple others have
But you never heard it
Are you in pain?
Because I know it too.
You're beautiful, stunning
Soft and sharp face, long, healthy hair
And your voice is perfect -
I think you regret it sometimes
But you can't help it
You go back to the vomit
And I used to be awkward with you,
But I know He uses the weak to shame the wise
The one most atrocious is the one He saved
This I know, so for you the same
He knows your name
This you know
But what takes you?
Are you lost?
Is it a reputation thing?
Did they steal your identity and stuff it down the drain?
Put you with the outsiders —
Blame you, because you act like that
But the boys still want you
So you stay with them
And if your parents are absent minded
You're alone with him in his bedroom
Who's to say no?
He talks deep so you pretend it's deep
Not shallow
And I want it too sometimes
So I understand
I know how it is
But has He just protected me?
Girl, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry you've been injured.
A woman shared her story and I sobbed
You stayed when they went to swim after dark
And you talked for hours
And you laid your head on her shoulder
And she held you
Because so had he
But don't let it destroy you
Don't find his friend and do the same because he's weak too
Because I wanted so badly to be over there talking with her and you
Because I don't know what to do about it
But they place me in a different light
"I have nothing to hide"
I could justly be sitting with you right now
Because I don't tell people what I've done
And the whole world knows about you
She said, "don't lose yourself to a boy"
And my friend had to remind me too
Because we go astray
And I know sometimes you're so happy with yourself
Because you won every challenge
And it's all okay
And next hour you're sobbing in the shower when you see yourself
You're sobbing on your pillow because the darkness can't drown it out
Neither can the pain
It just stays
And I know how great it feels
And I know you know you'll have to pay
But that doesn't help you there
Because everyone broke you, but who helped you?
It's different from the worldly evil we fight over
Because it affects the heart
And I know Jesus saves
But we're so lost
Before I go on a spiel
I pray God will redeem you
I know you but barely but I need you
I know it's true
And I know no one sees you
No one wants you so you run
No new
I pray you want Him like He wants you